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An angel have left me.
13 years ago
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Hey all you guys
I know it is kind of a sad thing to say on a Journal. But I was like I need to come out whit some of the filling I am hiding deep inside me. And sins you guts are so sweet and kind to me I hoping for some hug. Maybe some tips to go on whit my life.
For about a week ago my granfather ( My fathers father) Died.And I've had it hard and very depressed since I went to his funeral. I really try to chear me up by thinking about how old he got. And yes he got old 90 year. But that still don't hold back the thning that he mean so many thing to me. My father's family is very large, if we are all in the same room. So we are over 40 think happens with my aunts and uncles and cousins and my cousins' children. so there is often a lot of noise. But my grandfather was always someone you could page instantly with a quiet place and just talk about everything outside there are 20 others who are part of the conversation
One of my moments with him. Was when I was in the hospital for a longer operation. Then he came along with my grandmother and visited me. But the best part was that he asked me about the operation. He snaked about how he and my grandmother went and did it. It was as if he knew I did not want to talk more about the operation.
But the saddest thing about it all is probably the fact that I'm afraid I never got told him I loved him really high. And it is probably the only thing I've had it hard and realize.
Year don't think I can writte that much more befor breaking down and cry. So just want to say Love you guys. And have a nice day after all
I know it is kind of a sad thing to say on a Journal. But I was like I need to come out whit some of the filling I am hiding deep inside me. And sins you guts are so sweet and kind to me I hoping for some hug. Maybe some tips to go on whit my life.
For about a week ago my granfather ( My fathers father) Died.And I've had it hard and very depressed since I went to his funeral. I really try to chear me up by thinking about how old he got. And yes he got old 90 year. But that still don't hold back the thning that he mean so many thing to me. My father's family is very large, if we are all in the same room. So we are over 40 think happens with my aunts and uncles and cousins and my cousins' children. so there is often a lot of noise. But my grandfather was always someone you could page instantly with a quiet place and just talk about everything outside there are 20 others who are part of the conversation
One of my moments with him. Was when I was in the hospital for a longer operation. Then he came along with my grandmother and visited me. But the best part was that he asked me about the operation. He snaked about how he and my grandmother went and did it. It was as if he knew I did not want to talk more about the operation.
But the saddest thing about it all is probably the fact that I'm afraid I never got told him I loved him really high. And it is probably the only thing I've had it hard and realize.
Year don't think I can writte that much more befor breaking down and cry. So just want to say Love you guys. And have a nice day after all
i felt bad for not seeing them as much as i should have done