i removed the icon from my main page. if i find someone else that i like as well im not aposed to it. but for now all i want is my mate  xxchriswolfxx right now.

lately ive tryed to be with others. in RP in RL and in all honisty, im not enjoying it. i use to flirt all the time. i RPed all the time, and i had casual sex with people rather frequently. but now, all i want is him. lately ive been asking for alota RP partly because i was testing myself, and partly i was lonely, he was ona trip and ina differant time zone so it was difficult to talk to eachother. but even with not talking to him, i still didnt really want anyone else.... no matter how good they were. it didnt matter, because they wernt him. and nothing compares to being with him. a few weeks ago i was alone with a guy, who was curious. and i offerd to help him find out. (if you catch my drift) and we tryed, but i kept stopping, it wasent his fault i just couldnt. it felt wrong. for the first time sence i was 14 i frose. i acctually got nervis.

he didnt smell right, he didnt taist the same. he wasent what i wanted. he wasent unpleasent. but id taisted better, he didnt smell like someone i wanted to hold forever. and i acctually told him i was sorry, but id rather have my mate.

for the first time in my life. i dont need more. for the first tme im content with just one person. for the first time.... id rather die than let go. id kill to keep him safe. ive never felt so strongly for one person before.

if i could change anything about him, id give him a tail. because i cant find anything id want to change, but i know he wants a tail, and it would make im happy. and i love him. every last inch.