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I'm sorry to say...
13 years ago
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No, that's wrong I suppose...
Although it does pain me, I feel I need to do this. I don't know if people were aware of this, but... I haven't been doing well for myself for a very long time. I've pretended to be all right to a level that I could even fool myself from time to time, but I don't think that will last much longer.
My depressions are drawing closer and closer together, and I can feel myself just slipping away, bit by bit. I'm having trouble enjoying myself, I lose contact with more and more people, and I haven't been able to write a single word over the past few weeks. I feel tired, alone and worthless, and more often than I'd wish, I realise that there's nothing worthwhile about me. Nothing to live for.
To my commissioner: I'm really sorry for the delay so far. I can understand if you want your money back. I'll still try to finish your commission, but I cannot promise I'll be able to reach the level of quality that I used to be able to attain.
To everyone else: I'm sorry. The teacher storyline and the stories of the Spa will not be resumed anytime soon as far as I can tell. They may never be resumed at all. I'm grateful to everyone who watched me, I'm thankful for all the favourites and I still hope that I'll be able to return to what I used to be...
Today is my twenty-first birthday. And I'm mostly filled with dread for the idea of having to live another year.
Although it does pain me, I feel I need to do this. I don't know if people were aware of this, but... I haven't been doing well for myself for a very long time. I've pretended to be all right to a level that I could even fool myself from time to time, but I don't think that will last much longer.
My depressions are drawing closer and closer together, and I can feel myself just slipping away, bit by bit. I'm having trouble enjoying myself, I lose contact with more and more people, and I haven't been able to write a single word over the past few weeks. I feel tired, alone and worthless, and more often than I'd wish, I realise that there's nothing worthwhile about me. Nothing to live for.
To my commissioner: I'm really sorry for the delay so far. I can understand if you want your money back. I'll still try to finish your commission, but I cannot promise I'll be able to reach the level of quality that I used to be able to attain.
To everyone else: I'm sorry. The teacher storyline and the stories of the Spa will not be resumed anytime soon as far as I can tell. They may never be resumed at all. I'm grateful to everyone who watched me, I'm thankful for all the favourites and I still hope that I'll be able to return to what I used to be...
Today is my twenty-first birthday. And I'm mostly filled with dread for the idea of having to live another year.
You should search some help, not necessarily a psychologist, maybe some group job or even ask to your parents.... I passed through depression when I was 16: I discovered my homosexuality and I live in a very conservative country, so ALL my friends were (and even now ARE) homophobes. I put on 20 kilos of fat, I isolated me from the world and I even tried to commit suicide... then I asked help to my parents, they helped me... A LOT!
Ask to your parents/friends if the problem is "light", but if your depression is really bad... a psychologist is the best way possible!
Don't give up. Please. A life is too precious to give up at such a young age no less
You really should get some help like kuron said with a therapy if you are depressed....if not taking action it can get worse :(
Hope you will be alright again Gold *hugs tight*