That moment you realize...
12 years ago
...how bad your anxiety issues ACTUALLY are (because you never knew that the list if symptoms included almost everything that was causing issues and that they can hit from EFFING NOWHERE), how they're progressively getting worse (and not better as you thought), and how they are probably the entire problem.
Hm. :T
I know a ton of you all out there have your own set of anxiety issues - how do you cope with them?
Hm. :T
I know a ton of you all out there have your own set of anxiety issues - how do you cope with them?
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I'm glad it's working out for you! :D
My anxiety issues are caused by things other people relax in, and vice versa. Math is relaxing for me, same process, different problems, over, and over. The higher my math goes, the less like studying the problems get, the more they're like puzzles. Puzzles (usually with formulaic solutions) help me, so I do problems, solve a Rubik's Cube over and over, and play stealth-based video games. This works for me, but I know for a lot of people, this is the sort of stuff that would cause a lot of stress. You've got to find what works for you.
I'd go the latter route, but try to ask a doctor for some light medication to take when the edge off at the worst times. I've been on Ativan/lorazepam for far too long, and I want it changed. The side effects have hit me, and I've noticed memory issues (I have to keep re-reading this to make sure I'm not saying the same thing over and over), and it's scary. Most meds will have some side effect, wither like this or others, so go light with the pharmaceuticals.
The side effects just don't seem worth it to me. I know I'm not going to ever die/be physically damaged because of the anxiety effects, so it makes the pain, discomfort, and other effects easier to fight through/tolerate. The medication effects, on the other hand, might actually cause damage. That's a personal fear of mine, though - which might be adding to the anxiety itself. ^^;;
Another problem is that I think it's feeding off of subconscious fears/thoughts - because it happens seemingly out of left friggin field.
Like today - I was sitting at work, playing the game and BAM ANXIETY ATTACK which knocks me out for the rest of the day afterward. Inconvenient.
My two biggest fears were physical contact (I'd have nervous breakdowns on trains if people got too close), and performing. Funny enough, furries are kind of helping me with the first one in that they're always so touchy feely at furmeets, which really freaked me out at first (and still kinda does), but it helps. And now I can be in crowded places without immediately freaking out, which was a step in and of itself.
I would have never guessed that you had a fear of performing. You're always so confident and kickass.
The teacher I had put me through a strict routine of giving me dirty looks while I was playing, throwing things while I was playing, making me soak my hands in ice water before playing, running up and down stairs before playing, memorizing things off the bat and playing them at full speed, and performing as much as possible. The Irish music also helped me learn how to improvise on a theme, so if I get off track I know I can just fumble my way back to where I'm supposed to be. Just that knowledge helps me not make mistakes, funny enough.
It really wasn't until about a year after playing in front of people every week that I started to get over it. I still sometimes get twinges of "oh shit" when I'm playing, but I can generally get over it now and not walk offstage to abandon my accompanist xD
The big thing is exercise. Your activity levels effect your brain in profound ways. How often are you active?
My job involves sitting and playing a facebook game from 9-5. Then I come home and either sleep, draw, talk to Kindle on Skype, or hang out with people.
I love exercise (and the high that follows xP )...and thinking about it, it DOES seem to help.
Hm... I really need to set some time aside for it again, huh...
I will! :D
Generally, if I have a distinct purpose, or I'm with someone I know and trust, I'm fine. Exercise has also helped A LOT as a mood-balancer for me. I've been having difficulty lately because it's been too cold to go outside and walk or jog, which is my usual cure. Getting up and moving seems to help even me out and let me stay productive. The past couple weeks I've had some seasonal depression hit pretty hard, which has made me not want to do anything at all. I'm trying to force myself past that. It's compounded by some mild ADHD, which means my brain runs itself in circles so I can't decide what to work on next, and then nothing gets done... Yay for being screwed up in the head? x_x