So I was busy....

Then I got sick...

Now I have nothing to do... and Winter continues to task me, making me restless and go batshit crazy. If I could use some of my downtime with a fly rod or cruising around my boat; I wouldn't be nearly as restless right now...

Part of it is that  mnfurs went through a transition. Most of my obligations were lifted off my shoulders... and while I still have some influence and have a role I'm sitting here twiddling my thumbs as my single bucket right now is pretty much empty; while I watch others try to juggle multiple overflowing buckets at once. I feel kinda bad about this...

Not going into details, but I realized at current I need to sit and play a very very slow game of chess with my involvement in a lot of my volunteer activities. Politics is a very slow game. Wounds need to be licked and healed. Lots of things that both seem to fence me into a very specific role and limit me in the meantime. But *sigh* its what needs to be done.

Now I'm sitting here twiddling my thumbs feeling like I'm doing NOTHING. I sit and stare at the PS3 and my photo library, knowing that yes... they can keep me entertained but its hard to touch either so when I'm restless.

I can't go outdoors and fish or do much in the way of photography right now because it is TOO DAMN COLD.
A little here and there with the photography, but it frustrates me that I can't be as active outdoors as I'm used to this time of year.

At the same time last year I was catching Trout in WI. NOT going to happen this year. People will be ice-fishing and freezing their tails off until well into APRIL this year *sigh*

So.... *drums his fingers on the desk* not a lot going on right now... nothing at all until atleast mid April. And I get to watch my friends have the opposite problem. Makes me feel... kinda useless right now :/