people seem to let me down online. I'm thinking of what I should do with my life. This online dating and trying to date a girl is getting me nowhere. All I do is cry sulk and just wallow in candy worsening my diabetes issues. I feel my mom is right and be religious and stop being idle and think up goofy things and just work. I realize I'm NEVER going to have a girl of what I want or need. Just accepting and going to allow defeat. The idea hurts real bad but then again if I keep obsessing it I'll end up like Chris Chandler. I need to focus on my job. if You don't see me much updating you'll know why. I'll be working on my game ideas again. or playing tea party with plush pekingese. I'll still update but not much until I heal from emotional pain.