And its gonna suck.

Its so hard to have moments like these and be so far away. And im only further from getting closer than ever before I just want to cry every time i think of it. My chest physically hurts now when i think of how far he is away, his parents told him he cant come to texas, and i cant due to money problems (i'd have to rent a hotel or something whilst my mom said he could stay in our house while he was here) I cant even give him a hug, a kiss, a gift, ANYTHING AT FUCKING ALL...........


Shit now i AM crying.

Well... its seems the 10th month is here
Your voice I've yet to hear
Sick of the distance between us, the miles hurt
Every time i mention or think of it, it feels like i just ate dirt
My chest, its killing me literally, the stress kills
I wish you were just over these few hills
I write this as I cry
I've done everything i can try
all i can ask myself is...
why...why....why