Vent/Apologies/Other Things
    12 years ago
            
I don't enjoy when people doubt me. Particularly teachers. You're not supposed to doubt me. You're supposed to put faith in me and help me along. Yes I have a bit of a workload, but I'm sorry, my life doesn't revolve around fake tanning and coaching female's volleyball, sir.
Cut me some slack.
That being said: I apologize. I'm not the punctual artist I'd like to be. I feel it has made my watchers doubt me. Please don't. I promise, every single one of you, I am trying my best to juggle this god awful online course and the art I owe. I feel I've gotten into this limbo. I know I have commissions that are overdue, but I also know I have school work. Do I slip up the art? Do I just finish the essay tonight and do the rest next week? 
I apologize. Sincerely. Thank you.
[Vent Over]
A little bit of a life update (though I believe no one will REALLY need to know/care): I have been contemplating joining the armed forces again, and it's been stressing me out a bit. It's another bit of limbo I've gotten into. Do I join the armed forces, make my folks proud? Do I pay for school, costing an arm and a leg to become a Psychologist, taking 10 years of my life with me? It's a lot, and I feel I'm being moronic by thinking of this all now while I'm already in this state. I talked to bluebreeze about it, but I guess it didn't really help. I don't have faith in myself to do either.
Why am I such a mess?
Things have been going on, oh so many things. 
What do you guys think of me? Should I stop doing commissions because I'm not punctual? Does it bother you? Should I switch accounts and start anew? What do you think of my style, does it need a revamp? What should I work on? What do YOU want to see more of, if anything? More auctions, less auctions? Preposes? Should I bring back adopts? I feel like some of my watchers have left. Should I spice my work up with something? I don't know.
Tablet might be here tomorrow. For now? School work until Wednesday. I need to prove to my teacher that doubting people is just a nice way to make yourself look silly in the end.
 
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If you want to join the armed forces? Do it. If you want to go to school? Do that. If you want to work a 9-5 and earn just enough for the things you -need-? That's perfectly fine too. As long as your happy and comfortable with what you've made for yourself. No one else should really affect that.
I think you're a sweet person, and talking to you has always immediately put a smile on my face. So whatever you do, whatever direction you chose, just keep moving. I have full faith that whatever you decide on, you will excel at.
Now, on a less serious note?
I don't think your style needs a total revamp. I do think your anatomy can use a little more practice, but who among us -can- say otherwise. Just work on doing art that makes you happy, and if you want to do other things in the process, like adopts? Well I'll be happy to pimp it any time I see it <3
Cheer up sweets, you're a great kid, you'll be fine |3
Oh where to start. I researched the armed forces bit and it seems as though I'm actually unfit for service. Anxiety/Paranoid and also neurotic. And funnily enough, I realized that maybe helping others when I have the same problems might just fuel the fire. McDonald's, here I come. (Ohlighthumor~)
Ugh. I know my anatomy is godawful sometimes, ESPECIALLY my hands and males. Thank you for the constructive criticism. And thank you for being supportive. It's really, REALLY helpful when it comes to times like this.
You'reawonderfulpersonthankyouforexisting.
(Mademetearupohstopit,don'tcry,ipromisedmyselfiwouldn'tcry)
If you ever ever want I'll be more than happy to help you out with redlines or the like. I'm not the best artist, and I haven't gone to school, but I have a decent understanding, and worse comes to worse I can always whine at darkomi to help me XD
I have several ...disorders, that make it really hard for me to function in the real world, but the point is never to give up. It gets flat out agonizing to battle through sometimes, but as long as you don't try to carry it all on your own shoulders, and let a friend help you out every now and then, you'll be ok. I really wanted to go into the psychological field myself, I like helping others. But ..I tend to let things be a bit more personal than I should. So I think I'll stick to helping out friends XD and I'm possibly heading into the forensic anthropology field.
I can sympathize with a lot of what you said. I'm very lucky to have a girlfriend, mother, and a few close friends that try their best to keep me on an even keel and do their best to just understand where I am. If you ever need an ear, I'll be willing to listen too.
Thanks, btw, for the compliment<3 it made me smile to know I have a positive impact on someone. Especially when I think you're such a sweet kid. I was kinda bummed when I didn't hear anything from you for a while. (But I know, sometimes I need to take a little initiative myself XD)
Thankyouforeverythinggggg~
As for commissions...
Make a note on a price sheet post or a journal letting your commissioners know that you have a life =P Tell them commissions are slow right now so they may be waiting a while. I waited 2 months for an adopt once and I understood the wait, they kept me updated so I was fine.
Your art style..I love it and always have. I think it is very unique.
As fir what I want to see more of? Ummmmm I just want you to be happy. What you want to draw is up to you =)
Love you Tappies <3