Artist can sell art for new iphones and tablets and get donations for it but when someone is generally starving and there family is dependent on the artist for money to get a meal for the night that no one buys anyone's art? I don't think i'm a good artist in any way possible but i'm at the end of my rope people are cruel and so are the mystical forces out there because i try hard with my art and nothing seems to prevail. i'm thankful for the meals i have recieved from the people who bought some of my adopts and that one auction i had. It means a lot. But i just don't understand why i have to suffer so hard? I mean it wasn't enough that my grandpa the only good other person in my family my grandma is good but my abusive uncle mr spoiled asshole who lived with his parents all of his life makes her be mean sometimes had to die. We knew it was going to be hard emotionally and expense wise. But why is it this hard? The moment it happened I lost my job lost my medic help and food stamps and such my mom and brother both get disability but not much at all just enough for bills and some food. I am currently jumping through soo many hoops to get things normal again and it hurts i mean i don't even want to live anymore it's so bad. I mean i don't even have one bit of desire to make friends anymore because all people have done in my life is hurt me. I have my amazing husband and i try to be nice and talk but i avoid people because i don't see any good in them anymore.. :/ i want to believe everything will be okay but now it's all bullshit lies.