Hey guys wanted to tell you where I been for awhile. Last week on We I went to my therapist on base and I basically came clean with alot of issues of depression and suicidal thoughts I had over the years. Over the years I been battling depression to the point where I feel numb and suppressed it all to the point where the thought of not wanting to wake up came around. When I told her the truth I was admitted to the mental ward for a week and learned several things about myself , feelings and why I do the things I do. I found out that I'm not a perfect being and should learn to take better care of myself first before always trying to please others. I learned that if I'm mad with someone its something inside me that conflicts and/or something they do triggers those negative feelings. I also learned that what people say about me is none of my business. I wanna say that I'm glad that I went through therapy and learned more about myself.