This is my final journal for today, but not for forever.

This is the last time I speak of this, afterwards I will no longer cry to you

When I think about the shit that has happened to me I laugh. Because of my step father I have let myself be pushed out of my family.

He told my mother horrible lies. How I was a violent tramp. How I couldnt be trusted. How my suicidal tendencies caused by his bullshit was really a homicidal seed.

But the reason today I sit here in front of my computer and type this is because I let him grab me by the heart, because of my strange desires. And the big reason is...I had no one.

He scared off my friends and he lied to their parents to keep them away. He was what turned 6th grade into a battle field.

The reason he did this was becasue I wouldnt take his name. I wouldnt even take my fathers. I took the name of the family who took care of me.

Now I no longer go by anything but Ashieru.

I let that man get to me, so look at me now, they're outside having fun while I sit here without family.

I am pushed out because of my difference.

But I'm ok with that. He picked me off because he was affraid he would lose my mom because of me. I lost my mom to him, because i let him.

So instead of ending it I fight. I fight for the right to my mother and sister, and it irritates him

Velodia I only wrote this to tell my story and for you to realize if you leave, you let them win. If you allow someone to win you have lost yourself. My fellow furries, if someone has the balls to disrespect you because of being a furry you turn and smile becasue you know they are ass wipes for trying to run your life.

All of my furry friends keep your hope and happiness yiffing isnt just some fucked up fetish, It's what makes you happy so keep your happiness and dont let anyone fuck with your heart