My darkside: I... I don't know whats wrong with me. I'm not even with the guy anymore yet finding out he got another girl pregnant... it just hurts me deep down inside. I feel sick, I feel sad... I just don't feel like myself. And I don't know why. I loved him, I still kind of do... but I can never go back to him. He took things from me I can't ever replace. I gave up everything I worked for a year to get togive him... and now... now I don't know why I still feel this way toward him. It's driving me insane. I feel my mind slipping away slowly... I just... I can't believe he's doing all this stuff. Most of it I don't approve on... I just can't get past it. I know I sound emo, I know I sound whiny, but honestly I don't care. I've wanted one thing, and one thing only in my life... and that was for someone to hold me and tell me they love me and mean it. Thats all I've ever wanted. And for me, thats the hardest thing in the world to get. Sometimes, i just wish I had him back. I wish all the time I had Silent back. I miss him so much. Anyways, thanks for reading my journal. This si the dark side of me. You won't see it very often. Thank you. Good-bye.

And don't forget to tell your mate you love them.