had my first homophobic experience
12 years ago
My "friend" who I haven't seen in awhile did the passive aggressive homophobic bs. I saw her at the library. Two examples, one, I was getting pastry books and she said geez (my name) everyone knows you're gay. And two she kept saying it was wrong and that we would have this discussion later and asked how often I go to the library. I thought we were good friends. She was trying to change me. Now my depression is even worse.
I'm sorry the way things are going for you, but the advice I can give you now is to simply hold on and endure.
Things will get better for you, somehow and someway. Just endure.
She's not the boss of you.
If someone claims they're your friend, they should learn to accept everything about you. Flaws, qualities, whatever!
That's rule number one, is it not?
You should cut her off from your life if she hurts you so bad. It'll help you recovery and reclaim who you are and who you believe you are. It's her loss. She couldn't find it in her black heart to respect you and learn to love you and not your sexuality.
If that's her biggest concern and worry for you, then fuck her.
You need to hold on sweetheart. It's not fair.
There's always another way out of a messy situation and there's always gonna be a new tomorrow shining your way.
I only hope that you'll be okay, dear.
Just hold on.