Sometimes we don't get a chance to say what we really need to. In that vein I'd like to say some things to my friends that I think many of them already know but I none-the-less wish to sincerely express myself in writing so they not forget it. I've been thinking a lot about my life and where it's led me and the people I've met along the way and where I'm going. I know that I can't see many of you anymore and I don't know how many of you can even read this now.

I really want to say thank you. Having the support of my friends was the best thing that ever happened in my life. You made me feel welcome and cared for just as I was. It meant so much to me. For that I want to thank you all.

Some of you I only knew online. Be it LJ or FA or my tribe at one time on SL or a myriad of other places I no longer am able to frequent or find community in. This didn't diminish the strength of the times we shared once.

To those that are still out there somewhere to read this I owe you even more because you stood by me even when I couldn't be close to you anymore. I want to thank you for your loyalty to me.

The happiest times of my life were when I was with you all. I just want everyone out there to know how important to me it was. For everything you gave me I want to thank you.

It's over now though, and that's what I mourn the loss of every day. I feel I really don't have anyone down here I can regularly confide in so I'm just making my statements to whoever is out there reading this. I don't know what the future holds for me but I have a feeling it'll involve heavy medication; as long as my mind is clear enough to process these thoughts I won't be able to escape this loss and my depression. Whatever the future holds I just want everyone to know these things. I loved you all and you have not been forgotten.