I just hate myself lately and I just want to be a million days away from today, because I am the worst thing in the world. There is this weight on my shoulders and I just have to some how get out from under this because I'm wasting my life hiding inside in the dark, waiting for this weight to dissipate like ice in water. I'm ever sleeping, trying to heal and return to my self although I'm so far away that I don't think that I will be the boy I once had been but that there will be another facade for me to up take for when I do get back.
For now I'm going to try an claw my way back to myself with out seeing where I'm going. I can not let anyone see me like this I have to keep the fake smiles showing because I don't want anyone to see me until I am me again. I just need a million day away from now.