So one time someone told me I was irreplaceable. It's an interesting compliment for sure. It's kinda nice to hear but at the same time, I feel alone. Like I don't belong anywhere. I try the hardest to be the best person I can be, but sometimes I feel like I'm fighting a losing battle. I try seeing things in other POVs too, but I don't like them. They feel alien to me and I wish things were different. It's depressing really.

Don't get me wrong though, I do have people around me that showed that cared. I've gained many friends IRL, but something is missing and I'm searching for that missing piece. I wish I can explain it, but I wish my life was a tad different. I wish the world was different because most of it confuses me even if I do understand it. The good things seem to be ignored and the bad things seem to be put on display. I don't get that.

There's a lot more to this though.