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Time to change for the better
12 years ago
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for most of my life, i never got to experience sleeping on a bed of my own or even have my own bedroom. The 1 1/2 years that i did get to sleep in my own bedroom, it wasn't even mine, it was practically a storage room filled with my uncle's stuff or my parent's stuff. The mattress on the bed was about 20 years old (probably older), and the bed had no support beams, dad put up some wooden beams to do the job so the bed doesn't cave in on itself. No matter how much i took my time, how clean or organized i tried to do things, I was always told how bad of a job I did... I would always get in trouble for things i didn't do, or if I was protecting someone all in good reason (IE: someone punches me or beats up a weaker friend), very little friends in school... I was usually always mocked, laughed at, or angered. I barely got to leave the house, much less getting out of B'ville Texas... I skipped on a lot of movies, games, and shows because most of the time we had just Antenna TV... not to mention brothers took control of any games or consoles we'd get, only to let me use em once the consoles broke...
could go on but I rather not trigger my depression further.
(end of mopey story)
I will try to keep improving as an artist and as a person. I will try to complete dues and hopefully fix the slowness problem as I work. This should be doable as long as people don't put me in a sour mood to prevent me from focusing on art. I will try to make that plan of having a home i can call my own, having my own bedroom, and my own bed a reality as soon as I can without doing stupid steps that would just be wasting money. Every penny i get I will hoard and only use for primary groceries and necessities, whilst the rest will be hoarded up to go towards said funds. I'm in control of my life and will change it for the better. You guys are free to help me out at your convenience for every bit helps, and with that, I get back to work.
for most of my life, i never got to experience sleeping on a bed of my own or even have my own bedroom. The 1 1/2 years that i did get to sleep in my own bedroom, it wasn't even mine, it was practically a storage room filled with my uncle's stuff or my parent's stuff. The mattress on the bed was about 20 years old (probably older), and the bed had no support beams, dad put up some wooden beams to do the job so the bed doesn't cave in on itself. No matter how much i took my time, how clean or organized i tried to do things, I was always told how bad of a job I did... I would always get in trouble for things i didn't do, or if I was protecting someone all in good reason (IE: someone punches me or beats up a weaker friend), very little friends in school... I was usually always mocked, laughed at, or angered. I barely got to leave the house, much less getting out of B'ville Texas... I skipped on a lot of movies, games, and shows because most of the time we had just Antenna TV... not to mention brothers took control of any games or consoles we'd get, only to let me use em once the consoles broke...
could go on but I rather not trigger my depression further.
(end of mopey story)
I will try to keep improving as an artist and as a person. I will try to complete dues and hopefully fix the slowness problem as I work. This should be doable as long as people don't put me in a sour mood to prevent me from focusing on art. I will try to make that plan of having a home i can call my own, having my own bedroom, and my own bed a reality as soon as I can without doing stupid steps that would just be wasting money. Every penny i get I will hoard and only use for primary groceries and necessities, whilst the rest will be hoarded up to go towards said funds. I'm in control of my life and will change it for the better. You guys are free to help me out at your convenience for every bit helps, and with that, I get back to work.
Here is looking towards the future.
As nothing more than a watcher, I really encourage you to keep up your art. You have a truly extraordinary talent, as nobody can doubt. Improving as a person? Well, from the couple of streams of yours that I've joined, you seem like a good friend already. :3
May the best of luck be with you. We'll be supporting you.
Not everyone has a straight path, most paths have curves and bumps but if you keep going you will eventually get to where you are going :)
Take mine, I will sleep on the couch ;w;
Sorry, I still can get over the topic of how sad your story is ;w; ;w; ;w;