Wow. this is the fastest any fandom has pissed me off this much. This fandom since i joined last september have been nothing but a bunch of fucking drama. I am tired of all the bullshit i have seen or heard from the people within the group. I tried to be myself and it seems like when i am myself nothing comes of it. NO friends nothing. I am tired of being alone and having no one to talk to. I am also tired of being the one that has to be the one to start the convo all the fucking time too. This last week i did a little experiement and didn't text anyone at all... no one texted me to see what was up. no one messaged me on facebook or anything else that they had. seems like if i would disappear no one would really care about what happened to me at all. I don't think anyone would even realize what has happened to me at all. Life would go on as normal.

And yes this is a rant i am putting here cus i don't want to put it anywhere else and even on here it seems like nothing really get read either :/