Well, I'm not sure of the number that still read my post. But I need to vent. The last few days I have not slept well. I have so much on my mind. I wake up at night setting strait up... Most of it is family issues. My mom is making it hard for my family to focus on anything but her. She has quit controlling her diet. Went from controlling her Diabetus with diet. To taking shots. On top of this my dad is talking about leaving her... Also my own day to day stress of my job. And looking for something els. Also just not vary sure of my self lately. I know its depression. And I'm not going to take pills for it. Thats another problem for my mom... She thinks pills are the be all end all. As long as she is taking shit. She feels she can do what she wants... Also I'm trying to come up with video ideas. I really want to make this happen. I enjoy technology and like watching reviews on the stuff. This is also something I think I could be good at. I keep an open mind and weigh all options. Most tech reviewers seem to fallow the same cookie cutter view. There is also so much more running through my head. I'm tired of being alone. I'm tired of just getting by. I'm tired of everything I try to do always becomes some kind of bullshit obstacle in life. I think I'm done for now.