* lays down and sighs*

Today well this afternoon after school I started feeling really alone. like majorly, I was also quite Pissed and annoyed but the feeling of loneliness had really hit me hard. Its like I was invited to go over to Gaming Utopia with a group of my friends and I said sure but when I got there I wasn't allowed to game since my mom had to fill out a form or two and problem is she can't get off work and there is no chance for her too get out to fill them out. so I left a few minutes after we were allowed into the arcade part of the store since I had gone mostly to play the games I don't have access too at home or via the computer.

But its like all the while I walked back to my car I started feeling more and more alone. I know I have friends people who genuinely care about be yet I can't help but feel empty or off to the side when I hang out with them sometimes.

The sad thing is I even felt alone when I was talking to my imaginary friends [most of whom are characters from shows, books, Creepypasta] today while I sat in the tub trying to relax and maybe brighten up a little bit.

I guess its a combination of feeling shadowed by my friends as well as the lack of love in my life as it is. I haven't felt this down since I broke up with Raz over my fall break all because I made a stupid choice because I saw my ex [ old feelings are still there for both of us] and yeah... Honestly tho I look back and I know it most likely would have ended eventually. *sighs*

But its like Right now I just want to curl up in a corner in my room and cry or disappear because of the emotional pain I feel because of this loneliness. I just hate this feeling so much and its like there isn't much I can do about it as it is currently.

Sure I can try to not feel so alone but that doesn't change the fact that I am.