Just a second a go I realizes I said something to someone, not saying anything, that made me realize I've just done something completely against my ways, I believe in God and the Christ, but I said thin that would go against them, I'm realizing I told someone to pray for another's safety when it's me that should apologize and pray... I let my protective nature run over me like the fuckass I am, am now to realize what I said, just makes me feel like I shouldn't even have been lucky to be here, God created me to spread his message, and I go against it, I've failed myself, everything I've tagut my church, and I've failed what I've taught Drax... How the he can i even call myself a human fucking being after this, God have Mercy on me, that you will forgive my sin...


I can't even talk to anyone involved now without crying, I even find it impossible to press that damn button that says 'send' I'm afraid that I'm done either way, I'm done and I'm sorry, I've excluded my self from all this fighting, I'm done