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What the hell am I doing?
12 years ago
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I lay there in my bed, unable to sleep, thinking about my friends and wondering just what am I going to do with my life?
Hell of a question really.
I've been on this earth for 24 years and I have never given that question an absolute answer. In all honesty there have been several answers such as Film, Sports, Games, Music, Journalism, Writing, Food. But every time theres always something that slaps me just to say that it will never happen, whether it be the vocational rehab bitch (she was an absolute one at that), the Dean of a smaller college (DATC), or the news!
This day and age, Dreams are limited to the dreamscape. the common man's current dream is to simply survive. Forget the house on the rolling hills or the cottage in france.
I have a medication im quite dependent on, without it I turn into Vaas from Far Cry 3 (save for physical form) and no im not kidding, I flip fucking tables of mahogany and cast iron on a bad day without my meds. If I'm to work in a more demanding field I'd safely wager I'd have to up the dosage.
hoooo boy. What the hell am i gonna do with my future? I'd like to have a future where my sanity is still an integral part of me.
Hell of a question really.
I've been on this earth for 24 years and I have never given that question an absolute answer. In all honesty there have been several answers such as Film, Sports, Games, Music, Journalism, Writing, Food. But every time theres always something that slaps me just to say that it will never happen, whether it be the vocational rehab bitch (she was an absolute one at that), the Dean of a smaller college (DATC), or the news!
This day and age, Dreams are limited to the dreamscape. the common man's current dream is to simply survive. Forget the house on the rolling hills or the cottage in france.
I have a medication im quite dependent on, without it I turn into Vaas from Far Cry 3 (save for physical form) and no im not kidding, I flip fucking tables of mahogany and cast iron on a bad day without my meds. If I'm to work in a more demanding field I'd safely wager I'd have to up the dosage.
hoooo boy. What the hell am i gonna do with my future? I'd like to have a future where my sanity is still an integral part of me.
My Fujin wasn't quite 35 when she lost her fight with cancer. None of us know, for certain, how much time we have... but that doesn't mean we need to panic either.
Each person has their own speciality; sometimes they are harder to notice than in others. But, ultimately, what we can do if live our lives the best we know how. Our talents and abilities will naturally spin out from that - organically. Don't try to force a purpose on yourself... discover your own purpose for yourself.