Sorry about that first one guys my birthday had started on a really bad note, stuck in dead-end traffic when the clock turned midnight. Which is literally one of my least favorite positions to be stuck in because at least in uncomfortable parties or other places you can remove yourself from the discomfort, but int raffic you're sort of stuck at the mercy of everyone around you. Because of a tired mind many other self loathing thoughts came into play but I assure you I'm better now. Thank you everyone who's already wished me a happy birthday, it means a lot.