While the saying "Beggars can't be choosers" applies to my situation, my enthusiasm for this new job is severely lacking. In general the job isn't very hard....and that's the problem. There is absolutely no mental stimulation or challenge in performing it. If anything, I feel like I took a giant step backwards and fear I will be stuck with this for quite a while, since I'm desperate and they probably know no one else would be willing to do this job either. The environment is bland and isolated (warehouse-type, which is where I DON'T want to be), and while my new co-workers are okay, there is not much for me to work on my social skills. The pay is also bland and not something that will have a big impact on my life, except to just get by.

After just three days, I've already determined it's a job I will just ride out while I keep looking for something else that will actually be an ADVANCEMENT (which hopefully will be sooner instead of later). Once I get word on something good, I will have no regrets leaving this job. As risky as it might be, if my agnecy asks me what I think of the job, I will be wholly honest with them. The way I feel right now, putting on a fake smile and making fake praises would just eat away at me. Strange as it sounds, I would actually feel some relief if they did decide to not keep me just because of my honesty and desire to do something I can actually feel proud of. I want skills that mentally challenge me. I'm tired of being stuck with all the physical stuff.

I honestly feel like I got conned....

I haven't felt this depressed in a long time. I've even lost my appetite right now just reflecting on this.