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Oh wow i'm back o3o (Lots of Reading (At least, i think so))
12 years ago
Ok so i'm gonna make this as short and sweet as i can, because this IS technically my personal life, i just thought i should explain why i was gone for so long. ( And it doesn't really bother me, none of this is embarrassing, just some things that happened in my 16 to 17 year of life ^^; ( God did i ever make that sound deep xD ) ) It is in order of when i stopped showing up here, to now that i'm back ^^
1. My computer broke down. My computer had a virus on it that whenever i played one of my online games, it would go to a glitch and i would have to turn off my computer by using the power button because my entire screen would be t.v. screen static (Like flashing grey and white and black) but with color. Me and my grandma took it in to a seriously BAMFing computer place and they said it was a video card problem... so we ordered one.
2. It didn't work. Or at least, that's what I retardedly thought xD; So i told my mom and (since it cost 200 bucks) she said tough nubs basically... So i just went on her computer to play games whenever i could.
3. My grades were terrible. Seriously i had a couple D's and i think one F... ya mom was furious, got into some serious conversations. It was the first time i'd ever really done so bad on a report card... so getting punished was really hard to understand ( I'm spoiled rotten <.<; ) . I got to a moment where i felt like i wasn't going to do anything for anyone in this world (here's the 'deep'-ness i was talking about ><)... so i basically told all my really close friends that i was going to attempt suicide (If you're wondering why i say this in here, it's cuz i believe people should know what i really think sometimes... sure it's personal as fuck but i really don't care atm x_x And if you knew of this already, i think of you highly <3) But yeah anyway... the next day at school my friend came up to me and slapped me across the face, and told me how much she and a lot of others care, how it would be selfish etc (Not putting you on the spot, trying to say you're an awesome person for being there <'3). So yeah she talked me out of it. I was still depressed but not that much. (Main thing depressing me was a huge presentation in one of my chosen classes (I like it a lot) and i'm terrible at any kind of presentation cuz everyone looks at me and i hate wide attention @_@)
4. After getting my grades up to a reasonable-ness, my autistic little brother's social helper died. Yeah... first person in my entire life that i've known in real life, met in person, talked to and knew a little bit, that has died... It was so hard on me, i still don't really know what to think of it because she was such a sweet old-ish woman... she lost her son a long time ago (out of like 6-7 kids i think? u.u) and she lost her husband a few years ago... my mom said she died of a broken heart, which made it just that much harder for me. The thing i mostly regret is that the last time i saw her was when i was having a bad day... (little brother gets home before me, and she's there before my brother gets home, and leaves a while after i get back) so on that day i didn't talk to her, i just kinda gave her a really quick angry face (not directed at her, was just angry and happened to look at her u.u) before i went in the back to my room. That really was the last time i saw her... and it was a really sad thing because i went to her funeral. Which was also the first funeral i've ever attended. And really... i literally did not stop crying until we went home... and the church thingy before the burial and the burial put together was probably like 3-4 hours... GOD was that hard... she was just SO nice you know...? ;n; And to see her many children there... crying so hard and knowing both of their parents were gone... it made me feel like shit with how i was feeling... I need to have more faith in myself or something, don't take life for granted etc... i hope that's what i was supposed to learn from that u-u
5. My grades went down again. This time it was only a D i think... but either way my mom was mad (Btw both times she grounded me from her computer, so yeah) as hell and made me go to tutoring and all that crap. I finally got them up... about now, heh. 2 A+s, 2 Bs, and 2 Cs :3
6. Took my computer back in finally. Found out it wasn't working because a software update kept downloading incorrectly so it kept trying to download it over and over again every time i turned off my comp (which was like 6-9 times or so). So my memory got flooded with that one update, several times. And turns out it was a huge one, so when we took it in to the computer guys, they explained it to me in the back of their office and stuff. Which is why i'm back! <3 And yer o3o So that update downloaded, and behind it were another 14, so yeah that helped a shit-ton xD;
7. I LITERALLY GOT TO SILVER I IN LoL just before typing this XD Not really important but hey i wanted to mention it... yay me .3.
And yeah. That's about it for why i was gone. I KNOW there was ONE other thing i wanted to mention but i can't remember it... ( My dad's getting back into my life and fucking it up but that's more personal so mehhhhhhh and that's not the thing i was thinking of, just needed to mention it cuz he's a dick -.- ) oh well, must not be TOO important o3o; If i remember it i'll edit this ^^;
Now since (*) i'm back, i will be taking the next week and a half ( hopefully it doesn't actually take THAT long xD; ) to look through all 5,654 (possibly more now) submissions xD I don't wanna miss a thing! >w< Although i WILL be nuking journals... because i am NOT reading through 2.6k journals XD sorry lol i don't have 5 years to just sit and read 8D So yeah, if i'm on i'll mostly be checking arts .3.
* - I REMEMBERED IT OMG XD Ughhhhh it bothers me so much! ;3; I missed my first FA anniversary ; 333; March 16th last year was when i signed up and i flippin' missed my first FA anniversary! I fricken love it here, i've made a lot of awesome friends and met a lot of awesome artists that i thought i'd never get the opportunity to meet (even if it's just sending words back and forth through electronics XD) and just ahhhhhhh <3 Love FA ;3; But yeah... oh wells for me u3u
One last thing! TOMORROW'S MY BIRTHDAY <3333333 ( I'll be 17 yayyyyyyy ;3; )
1. My computer broke down. My computer had a virus on it that whenever i played one of my online games, it would go to a glitch and i would have to turn off my computer by using the power button because my entire screen would be t.v. screen static (Like flashing grey and white and black) but with color. Me and my grandma took it in to a seriously BAMFing computer place and they said it was a video card problem... so we ordered one.
2. It didn't work. Or at least, that's what I retardedly thought xD; So i told my mom and (since it cost 200 bucks) she said tough nubs basically... So i just went on her computer to play games whenever i could.
3. My grades were terrible. Seriously i had a couple D's and i think one F... ya mom was furious, got into some serious conversations. It was the first time i'd ever really done so bad on a report card... so getting punished was really hard to understand ( I'm spoiled rotten <.<; ) . I got to a moment where i felt like i wasn't going to do anything for anyone in this world (here's the 'deep'-ness i was talking about ><)... so i basically told all my really close friends that i was going to attempt suicide (If you're wondering why i say this in here, it's cuz i believe people should know what i really think sometimes... sure it's personal as fuck but i really don't care atm x_x And if you knew of this already, i think of you highly <3) But yeah anyway... the next day at school my friend came up to me and slapped me across the face, and told me how much she and a lot of others care, how it would be selfish etc (Not putting you on the spot, trying to say you're an awesome person for being there <'3). So yeah she talked me out of it. I was still depressed but not that much. (Main thing depressing me was a huge presentation in one of my chosen classes (I like it a lot) and i'm terrible at any kind of presentation cuz everyone looks at me and i hate wide attention @_@)
4. After getting my grades up to a reasonable-ness, my autistic little brother's social helper died. Yeah... first person in my entire life that i've known in real life, met in person, talked to and knew a little bit, that has died... It was so hard on me, i still don't really know what to think of it because she was such a sweet old-ish woman... she lost her son a long time ago (out of like 6-7 kids i think? u.u) and she lost her husband a few years ago... my mom said she died of a broken heart, which made it just that much harder for me. The thing i mostly regret is that the last time i saw her was when i was having a bad day... (little brother gets home before me, and she's there before my brother gets home, and leaves a while after i get back) so on that day i didn't talk to her, i just kinda gave her a really quick angry face (not directed at her, was just angry and happened to look at her u.u) before i went in the back to my room. That really was the last time i saw her... and it was a really sad thing because i went to her funeral. Which was also the first funeral i've ever attended. And really... i literally did not stop crying until we went home... and the church thingy before the burial and the burial put together was probably like 3-4 hours... GOD was that hard... she was just SO nice you know...? ;n; And to see her many children there... crying so hard and knowing both of their parents were gone... it made me feel like shit with how i was feeling... I need to have more faith in myself or something, don't take life for granted etc... i hope that's what i was supposed to learn from that u-u
5. My grades went down again. This time it was only a D i think... but either way my mom was mad (Btw both times she grounded me from her computer, so yeah) as hell and made me go to tutoring and all that crap. I finally got them up... about now, heh. 2 A+s, 2 Bs, and 2 Cs :3
6. Took my computer back in finally. Found out it wasn't working because a software update kept downloading incorrectly so it kept trying to download it over and over again every time i turned off my comp (which was like 6-9 times or so). So my memory got flooded with that one update, several times. And turns out it was a huge one, so when we took it in to the computer guys, they explained it to me in the back of their office and stuff. Which is why i'm back! <3 And yer o3o So that update downloaded, and behind it were another 14, so yeah that helped a shit-ton xD;
7. I LITERALLY GOT TO SILVER I IN LoL just before typing this XD Not really important but hey i wanted to mention it... yay me .3.
And yeah. That's about it for why i was gone. I KNOW there was ONE other thing i wanted to mention but i can't remember it... ( My dad's getting back into my life and fucking it up but that's more personal so mehhhhhhh and that's not the thing i was thinking of, just needed to mention it cuz he's a dick -.- ) oh well, must not be TOO important o3o; If i remember it i'll edit this ^^;
Now since (*) i'm back, i will be taking the next week and a half ( hopefully it doesn't actually take THAT long xD; ) to look through all 5,654 (possibly more now) submissions xD I don't wanna miss a thing! >w< Although i WILL be nuking journals... because i am NOT reading through 2.6k journals XD sorry lol i don't have 5 years to just sit and read 8D So yeah, if i'm on i'll mostly be checking arts .3.
* - I REMEMBERED IT OMG XD Ughhhhh it bothers me so much! ;3; I missed my first FA anniversary ; 333; March 16th last year was when i signed up and i flippin' missed my first FA anniversary! I fricken love it here, i've made a lot of awesome friends and met a lot of awesome artists that i thought i'd never get the opportunity to meet (even if it's just sending words back and forth through electronics XD) and just ahhhhhhh <3 Love FA ;3; But yeah... oh wells for me u3u
One last thing! TOMORROW'S MY BIRTHDAY <3333333 ( I'll be 17 yayyyyyyy ;3; )
Snowcat Yukiko
~snowcat1991
wait...you play LoL too? that's awesome! I've just started playing myself. wb naiwi!
