Tomorrow is my 19th birthday. I don't know what to think of it because I've never been happy my entire life. It feels like I'm just celebrating 19 years of failure and loneliness. I've lived a lonely life. I haven't met that special someone and it seems that every time i get close to someone i think is important, they push me away. I don't know what i'm going to do for my 19th birthday and i don't really care. All i want is to be happy.