Okay so like I have a stuff to talk about (maybe) SO HER IT CUMS :U

ART

IM SO SLOW AT IT. I've been having a hard time sitting down and getting business done but I am none the less. I've been doing a lot of doodling lately, I RARELY upload my doodles but I was thinking about doing it anyway since some of them are kinda cool? I've been doing sketch pages of my characters and I like them :> Also I have a commission I am working on. Just having a hard time with the pose! (sorry!) When I get some more money together I want to expand my traditional media. I need some new stuff and I think a nice shopping spree is in order. I'm almost out of everything. Drawing pads, colored pencils, markers and my outlining pens are starting to dry up! ;w; Also, I am almost always open for commissions so if anyone is interested just shoot me a note and we can work it out. I dont have any set prices, I tend to just charge what I think is fair for my time but I am nice and like to work out pricing for people C:

HEALTH :<

I'm not sick so I dont have that to complain about, except allergies, they suck but I have it under control for the most part. What I am getting at though is much more personal (to me anyway) I decided that I desperately need to talk to my doctor about getting my anxiety and nervousness under control. I thought I was doing okay but since I've had a lot on my plate (and it will only escalate) I seem to be having more and more bouts of anxiety and attacks. I was kidding myself by thinking I was okay. I went to talk to an advisor for school this past wednesday and all she said was single word and boom. I broke down right there but when I left the office I came unglued and went to hide in a bathroom. I ended up having a pretty crappy anxiety attack. I still needed to do some stuff that day but left early and went home to just...deal. I guess its not really the anxiety in itself that bothers me, its what associated with it. Some anxiety is normal but I tend to just brake and black out. I start to hyperventilate, my stomach feels like a knot and it hurts, I give myself a migraine then I get dizzy and a few other things. Its also more troublesome since I have asthma. Along with everything else I get tight in my chest and start to wheeze then spend the day having random coughing fits. The days that follow are somewhat blurry. I feel cloudy, I dont want to talk to anyone and I lose my appetite, sometimes I dont eat for days and I feel so energy drained. Its just...becoming too much and I feel like its hindering my ability to do anything effectively. I wanted to go in awhile ago for it but my mom was less then understanding and I lost the courage to do anything about it but now I dont care. I want and need to at least try to make it better. I'm just not sure what to expect?

RANDOM

I want to make 2 new characters. I have a species. Its the species of my dragons, the ones I mainly draw. However, I dont want to make them for myself so I was thinking that I will give them away for free. Heres the stuff!

- They are called "Ven'sha" dragons.
- I will be drawing 1 male http://www.furaffinity.net/full/8559952/and 1 female http://www.furaffinity.net/full/8913195/
- You can give me specifics if you want. Colors, type, wings or no wings, big or small horns. I dont really care. The only thing I really want done is like if they have a theme (like space, fire, earth, wind, etc. No time themes though)
- You must be willing to use this character. I dont want to design one and it never get used or see the light of day. Since they are my species, I will most likely be willing to doodle them at times so free art is almost guaranteed
- Only 1 person may claim each. Like one person gets the male and one gets the female!