Well fuck. So this is the first time I've been to a computer in a while, and the main reason is I'm back home.

After last post, I had a worked, been back and forward over the country. Actually was moved to a second trainers truck after about 3 weeks. First trainers truck broke down and well, both of us were high strung individuals, it wasn't working out. So moved to second trainers truck, real awesome guy.

But the thing about it is... backing, learned it. Shifting, was getting good. Load securement, the hard part for flatbedding I actually enjoyed and was doing great on. But I got into city traffic I tensed up so much trainer was worried I'd be more likely to make mistakes because of how jittery I was (I could tell, my shifting went to crap in bad traffic.)

So I'm jobless now. Trainer and training lead both wanted to keep me on, but this whole city thing no one could figure out how to make me calm down and after 5 weeks of training, they had to let me go. And it was a nice type, they suggested I take a couple months to decompress, try another company, I can always go back to Melton in a year, I'm leaving on very good terms.

Just humiliated, frustrated, tired and worn out... I wouldn't be so bloody mad at myself if I hadn't proven I could do -all- of it, but just couldn't put it together in a city.

So ya... don't mind me while I go hide for a while.