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Is this the end?
12 years ago
If you read, read until the end. Please.
As I'm sitting on the edge of this cliff, I'm watching the sunset. I'm thinking. The music is playing loud in the back ground but I'm not paying it any attention. I'm just thinking... It's the end of an era for me. I don't regret anything. It had an awesome time and I learn a lot on people but mostly, on me. Does it how it end or is there something new to come up ahead? The water down there is calm. the wind blow softly. In my heart, it sadden me to know that I might not come back. I wish it would end differently, but... Over the years, I lost contact with so many people, I feel like I don't belong to this place anymore.
Memories. I remember, remember all the good time I had with my friends, with my mates... Mates, that I stupidly pushed away because I thought I didn't deserve to be happy. Regrets and guilt are starting to grow now. If I'm all alone, it's because of me. I'm the only one to blame. I wish... I wish I could go back in time and make things right, but I can't. I'll have to live with it. The sun is down now. Darkness is rising. I can see the stars, they are so bright. I stretch my arms, I feel like I could touch them. "Should I?" I'm asking to my self. I let my self slip of those rocks and push myself into the emptiness of the night. Only in the free fall I can clear up my head. I open my wings and glide softly in the air, flying to somewhere new. To a new life maybe.
Now don't panic. I wrote that while I was on Secondlife, shutting most of my business down and cashing most of my liden$. I had good time playing, but I don't have any good reason to be playing anymore. I think it's just time to leave and come back every once in a while to say hi. It's true, I'm feeling down about that, but I don't see any good reason to stay on more. Most of the place I use to know are closed, most of the people I knew are gone and I have more than enough to do RL so I barely have time to go online. I really thought it would end differently.
As I'm sitting on the edge of this cliff, I'm watching the sunset. I'm thinking. The music is playing loud in the back ground but I'm not paying it any attention. I'm just thinking... It's the end of an era for me. I don't regret anything. It had an awesome time and I learn a lot on people but mostly, on me. Does it how it end or is there something new to come up ahead? The water down there is calm. the wind blow softly. In my heart, it sadden me to know that I might not come back. I wish it would end differently, but... Over the years, I lost contact with so many people, I feel like I don't belong to this place anymore.
Memories. I remember, remember all the good time I had with my friends, with my mates... Mates, that I stupidly pushed away because I thought I didn't deserve to be happy. Regrets and guilt are starting to grow now. If I'm all alone, it's because of me. I'm the only one to blame. I wish... I wish I could go back in time and make things right, but I can't. I'll have to live with it. The sun is down now. Darkness is rising. I can see the stars, they are so bright. I stretch my arms, I feel like I could touch them. "Should I?" I'm asking to my self. I let my self slip of those rocks and push myself into the emptiness of the night. Only in the free fall I can clear up my head. I open my wings and glide softly in the air, flying to somewhere new. To a new life maybe.
Now don't panic. I wrote that while I was on Secondlife, shutting most of my business down and cashing most of my liden$. I had good time playing, but I don't have any good reason to be playing anymore. I think it's just time to leave and come back every once in a while to say hi. It's true, I'm feeling down about that, but I don't see any good reason to stay on more. Most of the place I use to know are closed, most of the people I knew are gone and I have more than enough to do RL so I barely have time to go online. I really thought it would end differently.
I've never played SL but I often hear stories and they take it very seriously, so I can only imagine how you may feel right now. Most likely wasn't an easy choice.. *walks up to and nuzzles your lower jaw* Hope you'll be okay.
I've had much the same, everyone I used to converse with has come and gone, all the old places are gone, and... well it's a different environment now. Not so much about creativity and experience. It's more a large fashion show and 'the lulz'
I still go back in from time to time to do some building, but mostly conceptual work to supplement the things I produce real world. Still, if ever available I'll happily meet in world to have a yarn :}