The times where I stay awake for hours on end regard the fact that I have no reason to be up. Why do I stay awake so late? Is it the fact that I get night terrors? Is it the fact that I never did anything to make me exhausted? I sit up all night and have no one to talk to or anything to do really, I just don't want the day to end because everyday when I wake up, I want to go back to sleep. There is no reason to wake up. I have barely any friends and the ones I have usually use me (not all). I got kicked out of school and I don't even have a family (foster care since i have been 9 months old). There is no reason there is no purpose for my existence. Why do I stay and fight? Why do I fight when everyone pushes me down? I never have the answers for my own questions. I'm not even sure I want them.
Guys I'm so lonely...
I just want a friend where I live...
The only thing I know for sure is that it doesn't matter how far I get pushed. It doesn't matter where you restrain me away from society, I'm not fucking going anywhere. And if you don't like it, Kill yourself. Because I have to much self dignity and human respect to hurt ANYONE through the loss of my life.