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Is 30 years a long time?
12 years ago
I have come to eat your soul.
Question has to do with how long I been in the fandom. Lets lay down some history for you all.
I started when I was 10 years old, when I first read Red Shetland comics, and found a RPG called Palladium Fantasy, which to this day in my opinion is the one RPG to have done a furry race correctly.
Latter in the late 80s, during my teen/high school years, I found about some local furmeets and got involved in early BBS boards... even learned some MUF and MPI coding that was being hashed around as a random idea at the time.
In the 90s I managed to join my first MUCK, found some email lists I like, LavaDome 5 was a big one, even found some decent RP in the fandom that was not centered around yiff and the like. SPR Muck was my frist one, and I even helped FurSpace and Furry Faire grow by helping them out with content needs. This was also when I found out how fun it was to RP a evil character that was not obviously evil. it was in 92 I settled down with the name Typhon.
In 1999, after my tour in the US Navy, I whent to my frist furcon, AnthroCon. Which blew my mind, but I managed to go back a couple of more times in latter years. It was also about this time I learned how much drama was in the fandom. To me it wasn't to much of a suprise, I been to star trek and comic conventions, even a anime con down in florida, and they had plently of it there.
In the early 2000s I found out about Second Life, and joined that, While yea I did the adult thing there, I mostly enjoyed exploring, building and learning what I could from them about CGI art and animation. At this time I started to dabble, even talk to old friends from my college days about it to learn more. I even joined groups I am still proud of to have been in to this day.
However these days most of that is behind me. After some things I put some things behind me to let it die down. I still run to drama, but I can ignore it. After all 90% of drama is centered around some personal need to say I am better then you or some other idiotic ideal. I settled in to a game I like that has a solid history of a strong and good community. Even became a guild leader and made friends with other guild leaders and others on the server I play on.
So now here I am 40 years old and though my finical problems and such are leading to another move. Heck I already been homeless once, and I do not want to repeat the experience. I find myself looking back on it all, where I have been, what I managed to do, thoughts I once called friends, and in my mind would still like to.
Also I ask myself should I just step back from it all? I seen it grow from before it's BBS days to the current incarnation... so is it time for me to step back and stop trying to be active in it?
I mean yea I have had been through 3 pets and 2 mates all of which kinda flopped... heck I even almost got marred twice. Still I ask the question, should I continue to try and be involved or just step back in to the shadows and disappear...
Right now I don't think so.. the fandom is at it's height currently, and only tends to be more positive then anything else dispite all those that would bring it drama would like one to belive.
So this journal in the end goes out to all of you. Like me or Hate me.. it is your contrubitions that make sticking around worth it. That alone is the reason for the decision. I want to see and be part of what our future holds, and I am eager for it. So everyone no matter what there in to or there level of support in the fandom, be it artist, writer, donator, website design, community leader, a simple watcher just out there to have fun... hell even the fanboys. Your all inspirations for this old goat that litterly grew up along side this fandom to stick around and not step in to the shadows.
I started when I was 10 years old, when I first read Red Shetland comics, and found a RPG called Palladium Fantasy, which to this day in my opinion is the one RPG to have done a furry race correctly.
Latter in the late 80s, during my teen/high school years, I found about some local furmeets and got involved in early BBS boards... even learned some MUF and MPI coding that was being hashed around as a random idea at the time.
In the 90s I managed to join my first MUCK, found some email lists I like, LavaDome 5 was a big one, even found some decent RP in the fandom that was not centered around yiff and the like. SPR Muck was my frist one, and I even helped FurSpace and Furry Faire grow by helping them out with content needs. This was also when I found out how fun it was to RP a evil character that was not obviously evil. it was in 92 I settled down with the name Typhon.
In 1999, after my tour in the US Navy, I whent to my frist furcon, AnthroCon. Which blew my mind, but I managed to go back a couple of more times in latter years. It was also about this time I learned how much drama was in the fandom. To me it wasn't to much of a suprise, I been to star trek and comic conventions, even a anime con down in florida, and they had plently of it there.
In the early 2000s I found out about Second Life, and joined that, While yea I did the adult thing there, I mostly enjoyed exploring, building and learning what I could from them about CGI art and animation. At this time I started to dabble, even talk to old friends from my college days about it to learn more. I even joined groups I am still proud of to have been in to this day.
However these days most of that is behind me. After some things I put some things behind me to let it die down. I still run to drama, but I can ignore it. After all 90% of drama is centered around some personal need to say I am better then you or some other idiotic ideal. I settled in to a game I like that has a solid history of a strong and good community. Even became a guild leader and made friends with other guild leaders and others on the server I play on.
So now here I am 40 years old and though my finical problems and such are leading to another move. Heck I already been homeless once, and I do not want to repeat the experience. I find myself looking back on it all, where I have been, what I managed to do, thoughts I once called friends, and in my mind would still like to.
Also I ask myself should I just step back from it all? I seen it grow from before it's BBS days to the current incarnation... so is it time for me to step back and stop trying to be active in it?
I mean yea I have had been through 3 pets and 2 mates all of which kinda flopped... heck I even almost got marred twice. Still I ask the question, should I continue to try and be involved or just step back in to the shadows and disappear...
Right now I don't think so.. the fandom is at it's height currently, and only tends to be more positive then anything else dispite all those that would bring it drama would like one to belive.
So this journal in the end goes out to all of you. Like me or Hate me.. it is your contrubitions that make sticking around worth it. That alone is the reason for the decision. I want to see and be part of what our future holds, and I am eager for it. So everyone no matter what there in to or there level of support in the fandom, be it artist, writer, donator, website design, community leader, a simple watcher just out there to have fun... hell even the fanboys. Your all inspirations for this old goat that litterly grew up along side this fandom to stick around and not step in to the shadows.
nothing you haven't heard.
people would still tell me "oh you're a BABY, you got plenty of time"
I see it all like a healthy addiction.