So much has been going on here mentally. I'll spare the over-dramatizing such as "I don't know if I can stand it" and other stuff.... I'll make it through. Just figured I'd throw down a few thoughts. Work is mentally destroying me to the point where my body is making me physically sick so I don't go. Not only that but they will (happily) be laying me off soon. No no, it's a good thing really....but the stressful part is not knowing when. If they would give me a day, that would help.

Apart from that, I'm starting to say a temporary goodbye to my California buddies. Once work lays me off, I will be moving out to Wisconsin. The drive is gonna suck, so I'm planning on maybe seeing a few people on my way there to save my sanity. With moving comes the sucky goodbyes of locals and not-so-locals I'd drive 2-7 hours to visit. Hey, ya gotta go where the fun is. Also...family. Yeah we all know how they can sometimes stress us out, not to mention the attempted guilt trips to make me not move. Sorry, it's not gonna work.

Then came Califur. Overall, the convention was great, but some things happen that just mentally destroyed me for a while. Heck, I didn't feel furry or even canine when I got home and I felt a lot of anger. Took a few days to get over that, but still kind of sensitive about it. Every little thing sets me back into a cynical mindset, but I'm just trying to separate myself from it until I have less stress happening. Don't need anymore breakdowns...

So....I'm sorry if I seem a little irritated. I'm not being anti-social, just dealing with some inner troubles and trying not to drag anyone into it. I'll be back to my ol' self in a month if I'm lucky.

-Tk