So there's been this whole fude between my husband and I almost to the point of him leaving me. I've been having a super crappy week and am ultra depressed but I went to Ft. Lewis and talked to a counslor about whats going on between us, and she explained to me what is going on and now we're working on getting a hold of his Comanding Officer to tell him the down low of whats ging on. She asked me if he's seen anything sevear and I told her about the one friend of ours that was blown up by a road side bomb and then his buddy who was killed in a house explosion and that he held him in his arms when he died, she said that what he's doing to me is an affect of survival guilt and that h' pushing me away because of it. He may also be suffering from post tramatic syndrome and thats an other reason. If we can get a hold of his CO then maybe we can get him to go see a therapist while he's there and when he's doing his Decomp. We've been together a year and he's been in Iraq the intire time so he doesn't really know how our relationship is going, so we're hoping that when he comes home he'll realize that he was wrong about how he feels now and everything will work out. My counslor told me to write in a journal everyday, keeping track of how I'm feeling emotionally and physically and how my eating habbits are to keep a record of how I'm doing. So far since the horrid day I've only been getting better aside from waking up to vomit in the mornings from the stress of being alone before going to work :C. Well I cn only go up from here, I'm curently working four jobs. Dog walking, Preschool teaching, Art Comissions, and Mary Kay. I'm going to take a pole dancing class with my sister and our friend Jill and then Jill and I are going to go work out at the gym at her Condos. Wish me luck peeps I'll need it!