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12 years ago
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Yeah. I got a lot of help getting Fleur some money, and it took a really long time to get her the things she needed for a home remedy so by the time we got it she was beginning to perk up. Now she's hunting, so that's a huge improvement and the real test is getting her to eat. Once she eats I know she'll be fine.
But I lost one of my cats the other day, absolutely unexpectedly. Out of no where. Precious Nova got sick and started acting odd and we didn't catch on early enough. I noticed how odd he was one night-- next morning he was gone. Nothing could have been done.
It's a huge blow to me cause I've never lost an animal so important before. Don't get me wrong, I love them all, but cats and dogs have more attachment cause you interact with them so much more than a caged critter. I'm still extremely upset and my mood is fluctuating like the damn wind.
I was already having a hard time dealing with Fleur being sick. I haven't drawn anything in like... one or two months now. I'm in a sick dry spell. I sketched something out like yesterday or something but blegh. There's a lot I need to get done still, commissions to be done, but I want to give refunds, I really don't want to do them at this point. I wanna be free of that old fucking list.
So if anyone has commissioned me and I haven't given you yer piece yet, and if you even care/remember and want a refund, let me know. Everything I have to do I basically remember the price I was paid, so... yeah. Now's yer chance to get a refund. It'll be really unpleasant if people come to me later for them and I might not have the money.
There's a lot I want to do that I haven't been able to do, and my guilt and obligation has come to a head and stopped me completely. It was a lesson-- it won't be happening again. And then maybe I'll have the chance to draw myself some things, do some more things for friends. I'm in an awful place all around-- in real life, mentally, emotionally. Getting that list shortened and obligation lifted would do some good for me.
Anyways, sorry for just... dying. There for a while my internet was super slow but that's fixed, animals have been sick and I've lost a family member. Maybe now I can start to get back to the things I used to love and do them regularly and consistently.
thanks for yer time if you bothered to read this~
But I lost one of my cats the other day, absolutely unexpectedly. Out of no where. Precious Nova got sick and started acting odd and we didn't catch on early enough. I noticed how odd he was one night-- next morning he was gone. Nothing could have been done.
It's a huge blow to me cause I've never lost an animal so important before. Don't get me wrong, I love them all, but cats and dogs have more attachment cause you interact with them so much more than a caged critter. I'm still extremely upset and my mood is fluctuating like the damn wind.
I was already having a hard time dealing with Fleur being sick. I haven't drawn anything in like... one or two months now. I'm in a sick dry spell. I sketched something out like yesterday or something but blegh. There's a lot I need to get done still, commissions to be done, but I want to give refunds, I really don't want to do them at this point. I wanna be free of that old fucking list.
So if anyone has commissioned me and I haven't given you yer piece yet, and if you even care/remember and want a refund, let me know. Everything I have to do I basically remember the price I was paid, so... yeah. Now's yer chance to get a refund. It'll be really unpleasant if people come to me later for them and I might not have the money.
There's a lot I want to do that I haven't been able to do, and my guilt and obligation has come to a head and stopped me completely. It was a lesson-- it won't be happening again. And then maybe I'll have the chance to draw myself some things, do some more things for friends. I'm in an awful place all around-- in real life, mentally, emotionally. Getting that list shortened and obligation lifted would do some good for me.
Anyways, sorry for just... dying. There for a while my internet was super slow but that's fixed, animals have been sick and I've lost a family member. Maybe now I can start to get back to the things I used to love and do them regularly and consistently.
thanks for yer time if you bothered to read this~
i'm glad to hear that Fleur has improved some, though! i hope that he makes a full recovery soon!! <3
I tried to feed Fleur the other day and she spat it out, so I still need to get her to eat. We aren't out of the woods until then and she's not been hunting so I can't just randomly feed her or she might not eat. :/ fdsagasdg ugh. I'm so stressed. if I can get her to eat I'll know she'll be ok. until then I'm worried she might just die.