I'm getting back to this account. I think the 'Sanita experient' is over and was pretty much a failure so I doubt it'll be going much unless I just have it as a whatever account. The reason i'm abandoning it is because writing under that alias took me to some dark places and turned me into something I grew to hate. It took someone special in my life to give me a wake up call.

I'm still going to take it easy for a while. Likely I won't be doing much for the summer so i can focus on getting back to being me. I have a lot of repair to do so I'll be busy with that. I'll still post pictures from time to time but writing will come later.

I want to get back to being a good person. I turned into a real jerk as of late and that isn't me. It's not me at all.

right now I'm in a great deal of emotional pain. I am in the after math of a huge break down at work. Lucky I am the only one in the office today and it's been slow. I finally stopped crying about 30 minutes ago. I'm a ball of rawness at the moment but, like scrubbing off layers of dead skin I'm better for it. I feel 'clean'.

I have three hours of work left. I think I can make it until then. I'll just go home and go to bed.

When I wake up tomorrow I'll start to rebuild myself. I'll be more positive. I'll try to not get all snarky and vicious like I was. As far as that special person I mentioned before, you know how you are. Thank you. I doubt you will ever truly know the extent of the good you have done in my life. I just hope I'm there if you ever need me like I needed you today.



Tango