Well I guess I hit rock bottom in a sense...
I met with a case worker today to get something called "Shelter Plus" so I can live somewhere and this Agency I'm seeing can pay for the living expenses while I take care of food and stuff...and well
I can get my paper work handed in and there is 2 vouchers left, one is guarenteed to be gone so there is one left and I am one of 3 people applying for it...I really hope I can get it if not Im screwed plan and simple. I litereally have no where to go and no one to turn to

The more bad news is, even if I get accepted I wont be able to get into the actual program by the end of the month, there's not enough time...The only other option I have is to live in an appartment but that means sacrificing the funds I have for Anthrocon this year and I really want to go...Its like God is playing a cruel joke on me and taking every fucking shred of happiness I have left, did I do something wrong? Did I wrong someone and this is life getting back at me?

One thing is certian I'm not living in a shelter in the city, not a chance in hell. Rochester is notorious for crime and I understand all cities have this problem but the shelter is literealy sitting right on top of the worst zone in the city, just my luck right? Worse still they dont offer a place to stay throughout the day only in the afternoon, apparently its to encourage people to find a job but....I mean i have my own source of income (I wont go into details about it and no its not welfare or me selling drugs, there is a lagitiment reason)....I cant survive on the streets I was raised in the suburbs....

Everything is just gonig completely to Hell, the one thing I was looking forward to was Anthrocon and now it seems I wont even have that anymore. I just wish someone, anyone would just let me stay with them in the area only for a few weeks :(