well i was having a fantastic weekend, not a care in the world. thought about my life and said fuck it and started thinking about my life long dream to be a video game developer. no matter what i wanted to be a part of it, coding, character design, level design, story boarding, anything. i finally said fuck everyone putting me down im going to do it. i felt good. for once i actually didnt cry myself to sleep over the weekend.... and then this shit happens. i dont know what it is but i feel like utter crap.... hope everyone had a good weekend. i need to get some sleep. got work tomorrow.