I've been thinking the on contents of this journal for quite some time and I've been meaning to write it but putting it off. I'm writing this so that I can refer to it later and perhaps use it to explain to others in the future what being a cub means to me because it doesn't mean the same thing to everybody. Before I begin I want to note that I am an absolute believer that there is no 100% correct way to live and we should live life as we see fit so long as it doesn't interfere with the rights of others. What I say in this journal is not meant to be universally true. I intend to state where I stand in aspects of the cub fandom and nothing more. If I dislike something, that does not mean it is wrong. It only means that I do not like it. That being said, lets begin with my definitions of a few rather ambiguous terms in the cub community.

Cub - A member of the furry fandom that has at least one main fursona that is not of adult age.
Babyfur - A cub whose fursona is in the age range of 1-3
Littlefur - A cub whose fursona is in the age range of 4-12
Teenfur - A cub whose fursone is in the age range of 13-17

So why are you a cub?

I grew up with two very loving parents. They have always been there for me no matter what and I am grateful for my upbringing being the way that it was. I was not spoiled but I certainly could have been worse off. My parents nurtured me in all the ways you'd expect a parent to. This carries with it an unfortunate consequence, however. I was not allowed enough opportunities to figure things out for myself. I've always had help when I needed it and wasn't given enough chances to fail so I could learn how to do things differently. I often feel like a kid lost at a grocery store whining for somebody to help me find my way rather than taking charge and doing it myself. I attribute this as the main reason I turned out the way I did.

What do you do as a cub?

I love to act like a kid and I do it all the time without thinking about it. Over the years I taught myself how to tame these actions when necessary but every so often they slip out against my will. When I am around people that know that I'm a cub, kid mode is pretty much always on. I love things that are tailored toward kids: kids movies and TV shows, plushies, dinosaur shaped foods, some toys to name a few of the numerous things I could spend all night trying to list separately. I love being around others that share my same mindset and tend to get along with them more than serious folks. I love to draw cubs in situations that I can no longer take part in since entering adulthood. It is my way of keeping those cherished memories alive and living them again to an extent. I like to take care of cubs my age or younger, sometimes adopting them as siblings, but I'll go more into that in the next section.

Fur family, and why.

Much like many cubs, I have a fur family. Unlike some, I don't adopt people into my family simply because I am asked to. My family bonds are formed (and, unfortunately, sometimes severed) out of connections I really feel toward the other person. I adopt siblings because I have inherited the desire to nurture others from my parents and I feel the need to protect them and keep them safe. Do they really need to be protected? No. You can try all you want to convince me of that and my irrational mind will not listen to you. I just have the innate desire to protect people I care about deeply. I have a daddy because shi has been there for me when I needed hir and she keeps me safe from the wrongs of the world. Shi can make me smile with the simplest of actions and I couldn't even fathom someone else taking her place.

Diapers, diapers, diapers.

How could I not talk about diapers in a journal talking about being a cub? :P I used to be a lot more reserved about diaper wearing but I've started calming down, realizing that it's okay to have obscure interests. Yes, I wear diapers and yes I love them. The interest is a mix of sexual and comfort, though I'm still exploring where that line exists. I would say that they are more for comfort than anything else.

I am a Littlefur dang it.

This is merely a matter of skewed definitions. I don't think of myself as a babyfur because my fursona is not a baby. I am a littlefur. My character is 8 years old and can form thoughts and speak his mind. Don't get me wrong, I love the crap outta babyfurs! So freakin adorable! Just....I'm a littlefur yo. I mostly refer to myself as a cub though and use it as a blanket term to mean babyfurs and littlefurs as a whole.

Well I think that's about all I wanted to say. I may append more to this journal if I can think of anything important. Thanks for reading, if you did. I hope I haven't offended anyone with this because that was not my intention. Remember, this is only what I feel and you are more than welcome to disagree with me. If this enlightens at least one person, it will be a success in my eyes.

Cheers,
~Cody