Feels good to have a haircut and a shave. I went for the buzz this time around as I didn't want to fuss with it every morning, didn't want to pay a stylist since I get a different one every time and consequently a different haircut, and lastly didn't feel like I really needed to impress anyone in particular and might as well just blend in anyway. I look good with a #4 buzz anyway. Really feels good to get that scratchy beard off along with the rest of the wiry patches of body fluff.

I went through my depressive phase again the last couple days with it's peak this morning but it feels like it's past for now. It's really weekly cycle for me it seems. See the shrink on Friday, going to cut my Concerta down to 54mg and see if that helps my prescription bills any and describe what I've been going through and see if there's anything he can do to get this under control.

I need to settle in here, this is an opportunity to distill my life down and figure out what is and is not important to me anymore. I really need to cut down my possessions in life to a more basic set of essentials as if I can live in a tiny room like this I can live just about anywhere. I want to simplify and be efficient and effective.

My father's been poking me on the insurance so I guess we'll try that again and see what happens next month with that. Time to cut a new budget and see where I stand there and see what I need to make it fly and how short I'm going to be falling every month. Then I'm back on the job market. Time to buckle down once again. I'm getting really tired of putting so much effort in and not getting anything but disappointment back though. I need to get something though so I can pay off my debts over the next several years and maybe improve the efficiency of things in my small space and hoard the rest in savings if I'm lucky.