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12 years ago
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So Dylan has been living with his mom in her apartment she shares with her friend Mia and 2 young daughters. Frankly Mia is a bitch and has a bitch daughter as well, the youngest daughter is good though, she's very silly and talks a. lot. but I like that about her. Dylan's mom cannot stand to live in that place any longer and is going to move back to Oregon to live with her other son until she can afford someplace to live. She is leaving by July 31st. If Dylan can't get a job or his unemployment by then to pay rent to keep living there he will have to move to Oregon with his mom until I graduate college (Dec 2014) and I can move up there or we both go to Arizona or wherever we decide to go by then. I'm trying to get some jobs right now, they are not going to be very good jobs, but whatever gets us enough money is good by me. Right now I'm applying to be a delivery driver for an auto parts store and my friend might quit his job at a car wash down the street if he gets the job for Carl's Jr (right next door), if he does I'm going to see if he can suggest me to take his position and apply for that.
Right now I'm looking for some low income apartments a little closer to where I live now instead of where my school is, because it's cheaper here. We only need a place for about 14-15 months which would make our rent cheaper for that long of a lease, also I think we could handle it being a cheap place for that amount of time.
I really need to figure a good time and how to talk with my parents about moving out. I'm sure if it was close to home they would be more accepting of it than if it was in Rocklin. It's all going to be really sudden for them because it's not like I've been hinting about this or that they are even expecting it. I'm sure they want us to stay at home until we have a career, not just a job for rent and such. But blah, I never feel good living here anymore, I only feel good when I'm with him, but they don't even like him all that much and I can't talk to them about him or anything in my life really, they always turn the subject bad at some point... I wish it didn't have to come to this, but with things the way they are we both are kinda desperate to stay together. I think that small time apart was good for our relationship because now I am a lot more comfortable with certain things and I can talk to him about things I don't really like about when we are together, I'm not afraid of upsetting him about what I say because I know we can work it out without getting upset and things are working out just like that and it makes me really happy and thinking more that we can live together and not get hostile. I don't even know why I think like that, we've been together for 2 years now and we haven't even had a fight o.o so why should I have to worry about it~ Maybe it's because I'm around couples that fight a lot, I don't think it's healthy, and maybe it's because I was raised to live in fear..I hate that, and I'm trying to change my mindset because it stops me from having fun, don't worry I'll still be careful xD
The worst part about the moving is that it will be in August, which is my birth month and will make it even harder on my mom to deal with. Also school will be starting at the end of August and also summer SacAnime. And it's right after our family camping trip. Urgh, timing...but it needs to be done. I hope I find the courage to talk to them before it's too late. I kinda want to wait until we both have the jobs to pay for rent and we know which one we want, to make it easier for my parents, but not by much. I really don't want them to think I'm saying, "I've got a job now so I don't need you anymore, CYA!!" I still need them for other things x.x like dental and doctors and school and my birth-control medication. I want to be able to give back to them, I want to be able to help them out. I know they don't think I'm mature or responsible enough to live on my own with my boyfriend who they also don't think is mature or responsible enough...and we're not! I'll admit it. But I have no doubt that when thrown into the situation we will grow up and be able to live with each other. It's like that saying, the best way to learn a new language is to be dropped in a foreign country and left to our own devises, I think that's the only way we are really going to learn how to live. There is nothing that really prepares us for the real world anyway, school sure as hell doesn't prepare you for a career or job, that's something you build yourself once you're in it. I really do think that's the best way for me to learn also, I might do it the hard way for a while, but sooner or later I'll figure it out. And I think Dylan needs it, he's not a motivated person, but when forced he steps up and makes some tough decisions. I'm ready for this life experience, I hope my parents will be able to understand and respect a little bit my decision.
Edit: Looking for an apartment is something Dylan and I really need to do together so we can make a decision that we are both happy with.
It's Watcher Appreciation Wednesday tomorrow!! Be excited!
Right now I'm looking for some low income apartments a little closer to where I live now instead of where my school is, because it's cheaper here. We only need a place for about 14-15 months which would make our rent cheaper for that long of a lease, also I think we could handle it being a cheap place for that amount of time.
I really need to figure a good time and how to talk with my parents about moving out. I'm sure if it was close to home they would be more accepting of it than if it was in Rocklin. It's all going to be really sudden for them because it's not like I've been hinting about this or that they are even expecting it. I'm sure they want us to stay at home until we have a career, not just a job for rent and such. But blah, I never feel good living here anymore, I only feel good when I'm with him, but they don't even like him all that much and I can't talk to them about him or anything in my life really, they always turn the subject bad at some point... I wish it didn't have to come to this, but with things the way they are we both are kinda desperate to stay together. I think that small time apart was good for our relationship because now I am a lot more comfortable with certain things and I can talk to him about things I don't really like about when we are together, I'm not afraid of upsetting him about what I say because I know we can work it out without getting upset and things are working out just like that and it makes me really happy and thinking more that we can live together and not get hostile. I don't even know why I think like that, we've been together for 2 years now and we haven't even had a fight o.o so why should I have to worry about it~ Maybe it's because I'm around couples that fight a lot, I don't think it's healthy, and maybe it's because I was raised to live in fear..I hate that, and I'm trying to change my mindset because it stops me from having fun, don't worry I'll still be careful xD
The worst part about the moving is that it will be in August, which is my birth month and will make it even harder on my mom to deal with. Also school will be starting at the end of August and also summer SacAnime. And it's right after our family camping trip. Urgh, timing...but it needs to be done. I hope I find the courage to talk to them before it's too late. I kinda want to wait until we both have the jobs to pay for rent and we know which one we want, to make it easier for my parents, but not by much. I really don't want them to think I'm saying, "I've got a job now so I don't need you anymore, CYA!!" I still need them for other things x.x like dental and doctors and school and my birth-control medication. I want to be able to give back to them, I want to be able to help them out. I know they don't think I'm mature or responsible enough to live on my own with my boyfriend who they also don't think is mature or responsible enough...and we're not! I'll admit it. But I have no doubt that when thrown into the situation we will grow up and be able to live with each other. It's like that saying, the best way to learn a new language is to be dropped in a foreign country and left to our own devises, I think that's the only way we are really going to learn how to live. There is nothing that really prepares us for the real world anyway, school sure as hell doesn't prepare you for a career or job, that's something you build yourself once you're in it. I really do think that's the best way for me to learn also, I might do it the hard way for a while, but sooner or later I'll figure it out. And I think Dylan needs it, he's not a motivated person, but when forced he steps up and makes some tough decisions. I'm ready for this life experience, I hope my parents will be able to understand and respect a little bit my decision.
Edit: Looking for an apartment is something Dylan and I really need to do together so we can make a decision that we are both happy with.
It's Watcher Appreciation Wednesday tomorrow!! Be excited!
