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Seriously, writing stuff like this isn't gonna help you Scamp.
Do something about it instead.
Hard fact. Just to swallow.

Well, when you have no one to talk to or there is nothing to change, it comes out in writing. And I like it better in writing because it helps gets rid of the chaos in my mind... writing is how I express myself. Take that away and I feel even worse. And I did change something! I got rid of my faith... but now I feel miserable. So, writing helps me get my thoughts to stop being sporadic and lines them up, even when people don't listen. It just feels nice to express myself. This is just how I'm feeling today... maybe it will all change for tomorrow. Besides, I think people finally clicked in to not respond to my shit and have finally given up with me. Which I could care less about... because I feel like a one-man army taking on the world. And that is how it is going to be, I reckon. Maybe writing won't help others, but it gets shit off my chest and I feel a little more sane. If I keep bottling it up or try to change something, I am only destroying my sanity from within. Thus, writing helps me. I'd rather feel miserable and sane rather than happy and insane. That is my argument... I hope you can understand it from my perspective.

Only partially Scamp. Only partially.
I won't say more. Apologies if I upset you.

Hey, it's fine, Happy. *hugs* Also, if I may give my other reason, I am a HUGE attention-seeker. So when i write things like this, I am seeking attention and affirmation. And changing topic again: it somewhat did hurt me, but I understand you are just trying to help. Thanks, bro.

No worries Scamp.
Here if you need me.

You're not hopeless, and you're no loser. You CAN change something. *hug*

I did change something: I got rid of my faith. Right now, I feel like a complete ass.

*cuddles you* Scampy no complete ass. *rubs your belly*

*smiles* Thanks... c:

*hugs* bub, be who you wanna be. I mean, if it makes you happy, then *warning, offensive language* Fuck whatever anyone else thinks. If someone is your friend, they won't give a damn what you believe in, who you believe in, or what religion, sexual orientation, race, color, whatever you are... They won't care where you live, or what you wear. They care about you for YOU, not for what you do. anyone who does or says otherwise, is not truly your friend...

I guess so. That's why I have given up with my faith... because of assholes like that who only care about others and not me. I felt SOOOO left out last night and just hearing people speaking great things over everyone else made me realize it was all a set-up. I got some bullshit note saying "stop running away" while everyone else got some cool spoken over them. My argument is "why would God speak great things through other people for everyone but me?" This ALWAYS happens to me and it pisses me off so much because I desire to hear great things for myself. So I said "FUCK THIS!!!" and it ended like that. Right now, I just don't know how long I keep this truth from my parents... they threatened in the past to kick me out if I don't follow their beliefs. Where the fuck am I supposed to live?! I only have about 4 grand but I am a shut-in who is afraid of the world. That is why I have a shitty job and refuse to leave home. Honestly, I do not think that any of my Christian "friends" care anymore. FUCK THEM ALL! And that feels SOOOO good getting off my chest. c: *hugs*

Dude...I get you on that "afraid to leave your home" thing...thats why I'm scared shitless right now...BUT, as a kid, I traveled all over te world. Australia, England, Canada, Mexico, you name it, I've probably been there...

It's scarey at first, but you know what? Life has so much more to do than just sitting alone, worrying about what others think of you, you know?

I have been so prepared for things before and all fired up and gung-ho for it... then all the sudden, I freak the hell out. My dad thinks that my mom's illness might have passed onto me... calls it "bi-polar" I presume that is what it is. Apparently the things I do is just not normal for all the sudden freaking out and suffering panic attacks and stuff, especially when you are fully prepared for it. And I am not really worried about what people think of me; if they don't like me: FUCK THEM, I say. It is just me... my mood and attitude towards certain things is always in limbo.

I was only speaking from how my Christian "friends" view me. So, I am just making sure that no one on here actually thinks of me that way. It is great to know that I don't have to be a Christian to find affirmation elsewhere. c: Thank you, my friend. *hugs*

Cuz...note me your skype.

I'm always avaiilable to talk

Okay, thanks.

*hugs* you're no loser scamp

Thanks, Two-Tone. I'm upset cuz I can't draw lately nor can I get my emotions straight.

I feel sorry for you, I hope you'll be okay ! You are just like me but me I've got no friends at all ...

Thanks, Hauni. *hugs* And what are you talking about? I'm your friend.

Thanks, Scamp. *hugs too* In fact I'm alone too ... Maybe not in Internet but in real life yes ... That's so painful ... Sorry to bother you with that .. But your sentence make me smile a lot !! Thanks a lot ! I hope you can understand my English which is so bad ...

My pleasure! You're English is not that bad. I've seen worse that left me like

I hope you'll be okay ! Thanks for speaking to me, you make me happy ! English is not first language so I cannot write with a good English ...

Thanks! I hope so too. ^_^ And my pleasure; that's what friends are for! Don't worry about your grammar. I can understand it. c:

I hope one day I have a friend like you in my real life ! You're so nice ! If you wanna talk with me let me know, it would be a pleasure , don't worry you're not a loser ! Actually, I would love to help you seriously ...

I noticed that you are speak French. I guess I could try exercising my French language skills... Merci! Merci! Merci, mi ami!

Yes french guy here ! , you can try speak french if you want ! I love when a foreigner speaks french ! It's so cute

*blushes* I... nah... cute.

Yeah you're cute , If I can speak as easily as french I would be very happy ! Actually I plan to move in an English-speaking country next year will practice my English ! I hope one day I can be bilingual !

Canada is a nation that supports both languages. Come here. c:

Yes, that would be cool ! Actually North America is really cool ! Canada is great especially landscapes, I love to visit Vancouver one day I think I will leave my country ... I see no future in this country for me ... To tell I have no diploma

*you

Cool!

A drastic change in faith can take time to fully internalize. It was hard for me to get over leaving the church I had grown up in. But remembering the facts that I knew to be true and considering the new possibilities available to me helped me get through. Keep moving forward.

Thanks, friend!