Likely TMI ahead but sections are labeled so that they can be read or ignored easier.

Raffle Pieces:
Two artists are working on them and I have gotten a few looks and they are progressing but the artists appear to be going through a bit of a rough time so I ask that we (myself included) be patient. They will hopefully be brilliant and worth twice the wait.

Health:
Saw my 11th doctor yesterday, still no answers. The 10th wanted me to start testosterone as I am low, 200 instead of being around 900. The last doctor said that testosterone would really do too much to fix my troubles but started talking about my odd liver enzyme levels using the word "Hepatitis." He is concerned that I have had bleeding excessively at times to the point where I have to get into the shower as to not mess up the carpet or rugs. I just presumed I was becoming a woman or something.

So I shall be seeing a gastroenterologist at the end of the month to see if the 'Multiple Sclerosis, heart problem, degenerative back disease, Chrones, tumor, broken balls, hepatitis" is fatal or not. I hope they can narrow it down a bit and find out why now my hands aren't functioning well and it is hard to type or even play video games.

Art:
I find myself tiring of the porn I commission, I'm excited to get something that others will enjoy but I find little satisfaction in such pieces as of late. While on medical leave I don't have money to get art anyway but once I do, I think that I shall be getting more clean art for a bit.

Overall:

I sit here day after day while on leave in my late grandfathers house alone and see myself starting to go downhill, lonely and withdrawn. I want to talk and yet when I message others or others message me I find I have little to say. I don't do anything so I have nothing new to talk about and that makes me feel worse. So if you talk to me and I don't say much, know you know why. I hurt and am not getting better.