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12 years ago
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"Everybody, shake your body, lift your hands, stop frontin', you're just a puppet" -Puppet, Thousand Foot Krutch Okay, I have a poem to post regarding how I feel at the moment. If you don't want to read it, that's fine, but don't you DARE call me an "ATTENTION WHORE". I DESTROYED the last fuck for doing exactly that. If you have something encouraging, please don't hesitate to say so! I am at the end of my rope right now... and I just want out. D:
*****
NOTHING LEFT
I am empty; have got nothing left to live for
All the joy I once had, I don’t have anymore
It is now shame that dwells deep in my core
Nothing is in me; my heart is covered in sores
I was an intelligent person once in a lifetime
Then I wasted it all; not in quarters, but in dimes
A dime for each stupid stunt, yet not really crime
Perhaps it is not seen; I feel like I am black as grime
I’ve shamed everyone and yes, I mean even the Son!
From my mother to my father to my Uncle Don
Teachers, pastors, friends, even a mentor named Ron
Made everyone believe in me, then it was all gone
I wasted my life on the meaningless, conventional things
Been always cussing up the wall, and sported some “bling”
Tried to be like Slim Shady, JB and possibly Ryan Gosling
Then it suddenly dawned on me, I would never be king
I use to have a myriad of wonderful hopes and dreams
Now, all that runs in my head are things that are mainstream
And uncountable thoughts that just make me wanna scream!
The chaos is too much to bear… I gotta let of some steam
Fire up my laptop or phone and access the site Facebook
And let loose my sporadic thoughts, all of my mind’s nooks
Never caring once about the impact on others who would look
Now I realized, there’s a noose tightening and I am hooked
From an Honour Roll student to a student just like the rest
Even in Phys Ed, I did not even strive nor aim to do my best
My dreams were shattered, my hopes never to really invest
And even my faith, the only thing I had left was put to the test
And I gave up… choosing to go out with the guys to the bar
Despite knowing the shame I would bring to my dad’s heart
Now I see how much of a mess I am and strive to not drift afar
Too late; there is nothing left for me; my heart is black as tar
*****
I am free to express myself on-line. If you don't like, keep it to yourself or I will DESTROY you. And that is not a threat; it is a promise. I will rant on your fucking fat ass until blood is seeping from your heart! >.<
*****
NOTHING LEFT
I am empty; have got nothing left to live for
All the joy I once had, I don’t have anymore
It is now shame that dwells deep in my core
Nothing is in me; my heart is covered in sores
I was an intelligent person once in a lifetime
Then I wasted it all; not in quarters, but in dimes
A dime for each stupid stunt, yet not really crime
Perhaps it is not seen; I feel like I am black as grime
I’ve shamed everyone and yes, I mean even the Son!
From my mother to my father to my Uncle Don
Teachers, pastors, friends, even a mentor named Ron
Made everyone believe in me, then it was all gone
I wasted my life on the meaningless, conventional things
Been always cussing up the wall, and sported some “bling”
Tried to be like Slim Shady, JB and possibly Ryan Gosling
Then it suddenly dawned on me, I would never be king
I use to have a myriad of wonderful hopes and dreams
Now, all that runs in my head are things that are mainstream
And uncountable thoughts that just make me wanna scream!
The chaos is too much to bear… I gotta let of some steam
Fire up my laptop or phone and access the site Facebook
And let loose my sporadic thoughts, all of my mind’s nooks
Never caring once about the impact on others who would look
Now I realized, there’s a noose tightening and I am hooked
From an Honour Roll student to a student just like the rest
Even in Phys Ed, I did not even strive nor aim to do my best
My dreams were shattered, my hopes never to really invest
And even my faith, the only thing I had left was put to the test
And I gave up… choosing to go out with the guys to the bar
Despite knowing the shame I would bring to my dad’s heart
Now I see how much of a mess I am and strive to not drift afar
Too late; there is nothing left for me; my heart is black as tar
*****
I am free to express myself on-line. If you don't like, keep it to yourself or I will DESTROY you. And that is not a threat; it is a promise. I will rant on your fucking fat ass until blood is seeping from your heart! >.<
We all love you, we really do care for you and your well being. So please, don't give up, because we won't. *hugs*
We really do care for you ! "Yesterday is but today's memory, tomorrow is today's dream".
You have to face the problems of life and fight for a more promising future, you have to give your best every day of your life and never give up, live life to the fullest and try to be happy
You have a great talent buddy , and many good friends who really love you and will always have their doors open for you, when you need comfort, advice, guidance, a hug and an ear to listen to you . That's friendship
I hope you can recover at your own speed, take care
My door will always be open to you, when you need a hug and an ear to listen to you