Yeah the title is a bit weird. Weather here reminding me I am getting old as my joints scream so on pain meds this morning.

What I wanna write about is the fact, yes this is going be a bit of whiny my life sucks post, I'm getting depressed seeing all this cute art on here for sale and never having money to get it. This also ties into steam sales when games I want go cheap but never go on sale when I have little cash.

It hard looking sometimes and going ohhhh pretty but you know what food and bills come first. It not like I don't want a job or an income, trust me I do I am not suffering through my Masters in the middle of my life for nothing, it just I have had a hard time finding one.

I mean last month I was the point of publicly begging on the net for some cash to just go buy food. Yeah that how bad I got here, worse part is I don't know how many friends I have helped out with cash in similar situation and with promises of repayment that never happened as the suddenly are no longer my friends.

So yes I a bit space due to pain meds. Anyways just I guess feeling blah and sometimes seeing a pic I would love to grab for my chars or even have one made would be near awesome, or the fact I see one person who making tails and I know to do that but I don't the money or equipment to do it at the moment and seeing what they can be sold for makes me sigh.

Oh well if any one reads this just ignore the ramblings I'm just sore today and the pain meds are making me feel a bit loopy otherwise yeah.