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Tonsilitis sucks (RANT) (warning: gross/graphic)
12 years ago
This past week I've been really sick, had the same thing last month. And the month before. Turns out, I've got chronic tonsilitis and need to get them surgically removed soon.
My mom keeps looking up all kinds of homeopathic remedies, and I'm just like NO. I WANT THEM OUT. FUCK YOU. YOU DON'T HAVE TO DEAL WITH THIS. YOU DON'T LIVE IN CONSTANT, NAUSEA INDUCING PAIN PRETTY MUCH EVERY MONTH. YOU DON'T HAVE TO DEAL WITH PAIN THAT BRINGS YOU TO YOUR KNEES JUST FROM BREATHING.
It hurts so bad I can't even swallow my own spit when it's at its worst, I have to keep a disposable bottle and spit in it (NOT PRETTY.). I end up sleeping with my mouth open, because my nose gets all fucked up too, and it dries out so bad I get bleeding cracks on my lips and tongue. I have to wake up every fifteen minutes to take a drink, and the water feels like fucking ACID. It's bad enough to make me cry. My ears hurt so bad I can't sleep, or listen to music (music is my life, therefore this is a serious problem for me) (while I'm sick I get maybe three hours of sleep a night. Maybe.).
I don't want to eat, and everything, even ice cream and pudding, feels like broken glass and/or acid going down, and I can't taste it. The flesh on the inside of my throat is physically shredded, from where infected tissue over my tonsils has died and come off (I get these white patches and pockets, and last month some of it was black. The tissue was literally rotting off.) (I end up spitting out nasty bloody stuff for a few days).
I usually get a secondary sinus infection, and so I have to deal with having a stuffy nose and the pain in my face from swollen sinuses, and I'm unable to blow my nose because the muscles in my throat don't work. I can't swallow even the tiniest of pills, I have to kinda tip my head back, made difficult by my tonsils swelling up to about the size of large golf balls (maybe bigger), making it pretty much impossible to move my jaw or turn my head. Plus, constantly having my mouth open to breathe all the time makes the muscles in my jaw freak out, and cramp up, making me unable to close my mouth at all.
I have all of this going on, plus a pretty high fever that not only makes me achy and miserable, it also brings on pretty strong hallucinations. Yeah. I thought it was just the Percoset my dad gave me, to see if it would help with the pain at all, but then it wore off and I was still having them. I'd hear someone say my name, even if I was alone in the room, or hear birds chirping in the middle of the night, even if my window was closed. I'd think I was smelling odd things, like pie or grilling meat, even though my nose was so stuffed up and swollen it was impossible to breathe. I'd see odd lights and shadows out of the corners of my eyes or on walls, even though I knew they had no source.
At this point, I'm pretty convinced I'm just completely bat-shit crazy.
And yet my dear sweet mother doesn't want me to get them surgically removed.
My mom keeps looking up all kinds of homeopathic remedies, and I'm just like NO. I WANT THEM OUT. FUCK YOU. YOU DON'T HAVE TO DEAL WITH THIS. YOU DON'T LIVE IN CONSTANT, NAUSEA INDUCING PAIN PRETTY MUCH EVERY MONTH. YOU DON'T HAVE TO DEAL WITH PAIN THAT BRINGS YOU TO YOUR KNEES JUST FROM BREATHING.
It hurts so bad I can't even swallow my own spit when it's at its worst, I have to keep a disposable bottle and spit in it (NOT PRETTY.). I end up sleeping with my mouth open, because my nose gets all fucked up too, and it dries out so bad I get bleeding cracks on my lips and tongue. I have to wake up every fifteen minutes to take a drink, and the water feels like fucking ACID. It's bad enough to make me cry. My ears hurt so bad I can't sleep, or listen to music (music is my life, therefore this is a serious problem for me) (while I'm sick I get maybe three hours of sleep a night. Maybe.).
I don't want to eat, and everything, even ice cream and pudding, feels like broken glass and/or acid going down, and I can't taste it. The flesh on the inside of my throat is physically shredded, from where infected tissue over my tonsils has died and come off (I get these white patches and pockets, and last month some of it was black. The tissue was literally rotting off.) (I end up spitting out nasty bloody stuff for a few days).
I usually get a secondary sinus infection, and so I have to deal with having a stuffy nose and the pain in my face from swollen sinuses, and I'm unable to blow my nose because the muscles in my throat don't work. I can't swallow even the tiniest of pills, I have to kinda tip my head back, made difficult by my tonsils swelling up to about the size of large golf balls (maybe bigger), making it pretty much impossible to move my jaw or turn my head. Plus, constantly having my mouth open to breathe all the time makes the muscles in my jaw freak out, and cramp up, making me unable to close my mouth at all.
I have all of this going on, plus a pretty high fever that not only makes me achy and miserable, it also brings on pretty strong hallucinations. Yeah. I thought it was just the Percoset my dad gave me, to see if it would help with the pain at all, but then it wore off and I was still having them. I'd hear someone say my name, even if I was alone in the room, or hear birds chirping in the middle of the night, even if my window was closed. I'd think I was smelling odd things, like pie or grilling meat, even though my nose was so stuffed up and swollen it was impossible to breathe. I'd see odd lights and shadows out of the corners of my eyes or on walls, even though I knew they had no source.
At this point, I'm pretty convinced I'm just completely bat-shit crazy.
And yet my dear sweet mother doesn't want me to get them surgically removed.
bloodwriter
~bloodwriter
I used to get infections like that on a regular basis. I'd have strep throat at least twice a month, my lymph nodes in my neck would swell up to small golf balls and I wouldn't be able to move or swallow or breathe comfortably. It wasn't until my orthodontist looked in my mouth when I got braces that anything was done. My tonsils were so big they were touching each other which is a problem... So, he said I needed surgery to get them out and so we got it. I haven't had a problem since. I rarely get sore throats even. My tonsils and my adenoids were removed so I no longer snore either! Get the surgery. It's frickin life changing.
Lyra Kaid Clairmont
~xfurryguurl69x
OP
i really want to, even though i'm terrified of needles and hospitals make me really nervous.
bloodwriter
~bloodwriter
hospitals terrify me to no end...I hear ya. But it was simple. They put me under, I made it to 97 counting back from 100. Woke up groggy and sore but relatively happy.
Lyra Kaid Clairmont
~xfurryguurl69x
OP
thing is, when they have the oxygen tubes on me, there's a 90% chance of me having a panic attack. for some reason it makes me feel like i can't breathe, and since i'm still groggy from the anesthesia, i panic.
bloodwriter
~bloodwriter
I can really understand that. Though I didn't wake up with oxygen tubes on me.
Lyra Kaid Clairmont
~xfurryguurl69x
OP
hm. i guess it just depends on the procedure. i had to get minor surgery done on my eye when i was in sixth grade, and i woke up with the tubes. had to go in twice, the first time the nurse wouldn't let my mom come see me, even though the doctor said it was okay. i kept saying "i want my mom, please let me see my mom" and she just said no and sedated me again. the doctor eventually saw my mom in the waiting room and asked if she had talked to me yet, and she said no. she came to see me right as i was waking up again, and i had another panic attack, though calmed down when i saw her. we're pretty sure that nurse got in a ton of trouble.
bloodwriter
~bloodwriter
I hope she did! That's fucked up!
Lyra Kaid Clairmont
~xfurryguurl69x
OP
it happened at skyridge medical center, in lonetree. even though it was fairly new then, and they probably have better staff now
bloodwriter
~bloodwriter
most likely. At least it wasn't Longmont
