man

im in the middle of a stupid drawing now

and im looking at all these other stupid drawings

and im just like

damn

theres some effortlessness in these shitty excuses for porn that isnt in my shitty excuses for normal drawings

what the fuck is that

that pisses me off really badly why are my regular drawings shittier than my already shitty porn this is literally rage inducing i am so pissed off right now and i want more alcohol i am actively hating myself

why cant this be with me when i try to actually do something decent natured for myself why am i not creative at all thats such bullshit

fucking hate myself

whatever

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rXlD95VDqlo