I believe I owe everyone an apology. I'm sorry that songs commissioned/given still remain unfulfilled. Currently I am going through some major issues at home. My father going to college doesn't help as it cuts my PC access time in half. My mother has threatened to kick me out several times in the past because I do not have a current form of employment. And the way that my mother has been acting lately has put a severe damper on my creative spirit. Occasionally I get the mere flicker of inspiration, but it doesn't last long, shot down by the pessimist that I have become under the current situation. I dunno if I'm suffering clinical depression or what... I just... Open the programs... And nothing comes... Like I've lost my ability to create the sounds that I loved so much. I don't know what to dream anymore... I tried my hand at electronics... I still have problems... I've tried dabbling in art... That didn't work out so well either... I tried music... It was working for a while... But then the music died. I'm seriously reaching out for help right now. Right now, I just feel like I'm doomed to fail... I fight against ADHD, my mother's incessant degradation and criticism, as well as my more recent "stormy cloud over my head" spells. I'm trying so damn hard to fill these slots and have happy friends... "Simple task" mom would say. "Simple task" my footpaw.