Some friend I am.

When I heard that my friend Armand was in trouble, I responded to his post with my heart and not my head. I responded to the words that he wrote. At the time, what I didn't know was that the money situation had gotten as bad as it had for the people he was living with. I didn't know that they were in the hole. I didn't ask, because I didn't feel it was my business. I learned this morning that his friend, the one who was letting him stay there had read my reply, and responded to it.

His response I would say is justified under the circumstances. I feel terrible, and have no desire to go out and do anything right now. I meant no malice in my words, again...I was only responding to the words that I read:

"The people I am living with at the moment want me out ASAP."

There was nothing in the post about monetary issues or anything. I read this as if he was being kicked out. It wasn't intended to be mean or spiteful, though clearly that's how it's been interpreted. I can't take it back, and to just delete the comment would mean that I'm backing off what I said. I won't delete the comment because it's how I felt at the time. How I feel now is different because I know more of the story/situation. It doesn't change things though. It's clear that Ty hates me now, and I can't blame him. I hope that he's willing to accept my apology, but if he doesn't...I deserve it. Regardless, I fucked up. Hell, I'm scared that I fucked things up for Armi just by association. I'm literally speechless and don't know what else to say.

Apologies seem worthless these days because everyone says "I'm sorry" whether they mean it or not. It makes it all the harder to sound sincere. I 'm saddened and depressed over this turn of events.

Matthew W. Anderson