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Closing commissions, and other things.
12 years ago
Hey y'all!
It's been a while. Just thought I'd share a few of my recent thoughts.
First, I've decided to discontinue commissions. It's been a fun run and has filled my gallery, but I think I've finally realized that I haven't evaded the predicted result: losing personal interest in art. An article on the overjustification effect was what brought my artist malaise into focus: whereas the reason I started doing art was to realize visions extant only in my head, to create something of beauty and visual interest where was only blank paper before, art had become a means of making (a little) money, of impressing others, and of futile one-sided personal competition with other artists. I stopped enjoying it regularly; when people would ask me what I would do to destress, I could not honestly give them an answer. I'd allowed my relaxation, my personal outlet, to be coopted.
So I'm trying to get back to doing art for fun, to pull things out of my head, to enjoy myself with friends. For now, that will represent a slowdown in uploads while I recover my artistic drive. And for those two people with whom I have outstanding trades - I have not forgotten them. They will get done! I keep my word. :)
In other news, last night lancefoxx got me to try out Second Life again. The first time had been way back in 2006, and I spent only about 30 seconds in-world after generic character creation before I left. Curiosity was not a large enough motivation to keep me wandering around. Last night, however, not only did Lance and Burr dedicate time to helping me understand how the world and its controls, but actually got me a nice horse avatar. I then proceeded to spend much more time exploring various worlds than I thought I would. I discovered the Mormon area (Adam-ondi-Ahman) first, and it's actually very interesting - it was uncanny wandering around inside a realistic Mormon meetinghouse as a horse. I also loved the replica Starfleet ships I found, including the original Enterprise and the USS Voyager. A surreal nostalgia flowed over me as I sat my avatar down in Janeway's chair on the bridge with the Voyager theme music wafting around in the background.
Oh, and if you're interested, I'm "Khedvu" on SL, too. Don't know how much time I'll spend on it; I'll probably just be exploring when I do. We'll see :)
It's been a while. Just thought I'd share a few of my recent thoughts.
First, I've decided to discontinue commissions. It's been a fun run and has filled my gallery, but I think I've finally realized that I haven't evaded the predicted result: losing personal interest in art. An article on the overjustification effect was what brought my artist malaise into focus: whereas the reason I started doing art was to realize visions extant only in my head, to create something of beauty and visual interest where was only blank paper before, art had become a means of making (a little) money, of impressing others, and of futile one-sided personal competition with other artists. I stopped enjoying it regularly; when people would ask me what I would do to destress, I could not honestly give them an answer. I'd allowed my relaxation, my personal outlet, to be coopted.
So I'm trying to get back to doing art for fun, to pull things out of my head, to enjoy myself with friends. For now, that will represent a slowdown in uploads while I recover my artistic drive. And for those two people with whom I have outstanding trades - I have not forgotten them. They will get done! I keep my word. :)
In other news, last night lancefoxx got me to try out Second Life again. The first time had been way back in 2006, and I spent only about 30 seconds in-world after generic character creation before I left. Curiosity was not a large enough motivation to keep me wandering around. Last night, however, not only did Lance and Burr dedicate time to helping me understand how the world and its controls, but actually got me a nice horse avatar. I then proceeded to spend much more time exploring various worlds than I thought I would. I discovered the Mormon area (Adam-ondi-Ahman) first, and it's actually very interesting - it was uncanny wandering around inside a realistic Mormon meetinghouse as a horse. I also loved the replica Starfleet ships I found, including the original Enterprise and the USS Voyager. A surreal nostalgia flowed over me as I sat my avatar down in Janeway's chair on the bridge with the Voyager theme music wafting around in the background.
Oh, and if you're interested, I'm "Khedvu" on SL, too. Don't know how much time I'll spend on it; I'll probably just be exploring when I do. We'll see :)
That Isle Beav
~shadowfox014
Well, good to see you're going to be doing art for yourself! :3 I always look forward to your creations and can't wait to see what you have in store! ^.^
Metamorpher
~metamorpher
Darn it. I finally had enough to get you to do a dino tf XD Kidding, kidding. It's completely understandable. I wish you luck on retrieving your drive and can't wait to see what you do next ^vvv0
