Birthday; Writing
12 years ago
My birthday is on August 11th, 3 weeks from now. I wish I could say that I'm excited about it, but I'm not really. Not aside from the chance at a nice dinner with friends and maybe some gifts if I'm lucky. Maybe drink a little bit, though I'm working on cutting back massively.
Oddly enough, when I decided to do this and mentioned it to some friends of mine while fishing for encouragement I felt like I got very little in the way of supportive comments. You really notice how much positivity is given toward drinking alcohol and how available it is. I don't really even enjoy it all that much any more. I find myself wondering why in the world am I putting this into my body (along with caffeine when I drink coffee) but then I do it anyways. I've never been a daily drinker, but that pattern reeks of habit forming chemicals. Something like 3 weeks since I last drank alcohol at this point.
I've been toying with the idea of writing an essay about why we need hermaphrodite pronouns and gender-neutral pronouns. It's an important subject to me, but I find it difficult to collect and express all of my ideas about the topic cohesively. I feel a bit like I'm trying to solve a problem that doesn't exist yet.
Oddly enough, when I decided to do this and mentioned it to some friends of mine while fishing for encouragement I felt like I got very little in the way of supportive comments. You really notice how much positivity is given toward drinking alcohol and how available it is. I don't really even enjoy it all that much any more. I find myself wondering why in the world am I putting this into my body (along with caffeine when I drink coffee) but then I do it anyways. I've never been a daily drinker, but that pattern reeks of habit forming chemicals. Something like 3 weeks since I last drank alcohol at this point.
I've been toying with the idea of writing an essay about why we need hermaphrodite pronouns and gender-neutral pronouns. It's an important subject to me, but I find it difficult to collect and express all of my ideas about the topic cohesively. I feel a bit like I'm trying to solve a problem that doesn't exist yet.
Ah, wondering why you do something and then going right ahead to do it anyways. That's a hallmark of, well..., everyone! We're remarkably good at maintaining habits, even if they're not the best for us.
Whenever someone sees someone trying to improve him or her self, especially when it involves a habit that they themselves indulge in, the tendency is to drag that person down, just like crabs in a bucket will pull any enterprising crabs trying to escape back in.
I wish you the best of luck in your endeavor to eliminate a vice. *hug*
Best of luck to you on this endeavor and I will wish you a early happy birthday since I will most likely forget <_<
On the last note, having different pronouns for herms and genderless is not exactly a widespread issue due to very few of these people existing in the "real world" but I respect the wishes of people who feel they need to be called shi/hir ze or otherwise for the sake of roleplaying and story-mode.
Everyone who drinks does so with the certain knowledge that it's terrible for them. You're smart enough to take action based on that knowledge. Since you're the one acting rationally and the only one who has to live with the results, stop worrying about what they have to say and take comfort from the knowledge that you made the right decision, subjectively and objectively.
People may be selfish enough to want your company while they drink regardless of the consequences on your health, but that selfishness ends at failing to support your efforts - nobody will outright tell you -not- to quit because we all know it's the smart decision.